YLA'S POV
Oh.my.G!!! As in oh my Gabriella! Did that words really came out from my mouth?! I really don't believe it, at first, I thought it was just me--talking to myself, but when I looked at him--his face---magkasamang pagkalito, gulat at kung ano-ano pa. Mukha nga siyang natatae sa itsura niyang yon. His mouth literally open kulang na lang tulo-laway pa. I really don't know what to do, after saying those weird words, I just shut myself out. He even asked me to say those words again, but hell no! I will never, ever as in never say those words again.
Urgh! Mukha akong tanga, why?! I mean, bakit ko ba nasabi yon? Of all people, sa kanya ko pa nasabi, I mean sa totoo lang, para sa kanya naman talaga yong mga salitang yon. But how on earth will I face him now? Yes! I love him, kahit ilang beses kong pigilin ang sarili ko na mahulog sa kanya I just found myself falling for him over and over again kahit na sobrang gaspang ng pag-uugali niya. I really don't know how or when na nagsimula 'tong nararamdaman ko para sa kanya, I just woke up one morning that I couldn't do anything kapag hindi ko siya nakikita--nagagalit ako kapag may mga babaeng maya't-maya, labas-pasok sa opisina niya. Damn! I'm acting like a possessive girlfriend here, and he seems not to mind, how was that? Sobrang gulo ng pag-iisip ko. It's af if he's some kind of a virus that infiltrated my whole being. At dahil doon lalong hindi ko matanggap ang mga pangyayari. Why him?! He's the total opposite ng lahat ng katangian ng lalakeng magugustuhan ko. He's a freaking womanizer, he just bedded them for the sake of panandaliang-aliw and all that comes with it. I mean, I know masakit mang sabihin but I'm one of those women I'm talking about, pero wala naman akong balak na maging ganito na lang for the rest of my life. But now that I'm actually inlove with him, and admits it---makes it really hard for me.
"H-hey, are you even listening to what I'm saying here?" Naputol ang pag-iisip ko at napatingala na lang ako sa kanya, is he saying something? I am spacing out again--and that's because of him. Siya nanaman, siya na lang palagi ang rason, the reason why I am acting this weird. "H-huh---" jeez, of all words, bakit yon lang ang nasabi ko. ''Gosh, Gaby snap out of it, kanina pa ako nagsasalita dito, what is wrong with you?" Halos matanggal na ang mga braso ko sa paraan ng pagkakahawak niya. "A-a-aray! Ano ba?! Masakit ha. Problema mo?" Nanggagalaiti kong sigaw sa kanya. "You!" Pabulyaw niyang saad na halos humangin palikod ang mga buhok ko. "Geez woman, ang lakas ng sapak mo sa utak!" That's it! He's being Kiefer again. The Kiefer Liam Dela Rosa I've known since my life start being miserable. "Hoy! Galunggong ka! Wala akong sapak sa utak! Kapal mo ha! Kung sino man ang may problema sa utak sa ating dalawa, ikaw yon Kiefer-vert!" Nakasigaw na sita ko sa kanya. "Don't you dare, point your finger on me woman, o hindi mo magugustuhan ang gagawin ko sa iyo, or--- it'll be the other way around." He said that in a very husky tone, and all I could do is gasped in anticipation. What he's doing to me sent shivers down my spine. Pakiramdam ko papanawan ako ng ulirat sa pinag-gagagawa ng sira ulong 'to. "A-ano ba!? Stop that will you!" Sipat ko sa kamay niyang unti-unting lumalandas sa batok ko. "What? I'm not doing anything." Pa-inosenteng salita niya. Sabay ng salita niyang yon, ay ang paglandas ng mga kamay niya mula batok papunta naman sa hita ko. He's teasing me--again. Walang anu-ano'y nakaramdam ako ng init na nagmumula sa kaibuturan ng pagkatao ko. I start feeling a bit feverish on the way his hands make it's way to my sensitive part. "K--iefer, s-stop!" Shit! I'm telling him to stop, but my body says the other way around. Seriously, whatever his hands are doing, I am liking it. "U-oh Kief--" I didn't get the chance to finish my statement when he claimed my lips. Nahiya ako ng marinig ko ang sarili kong umuungol between our kisses. It was indeed the sweetest kiss I've ever tasted in my entire life. Not that I'm comparing the kiss I've shared with other men, it's just that, Kiefer's kisses are more demanding, passionate, kulang na lang pati ikaw higupin niya sa pamamagitan lamang ng mga halik na ibinibigay niya. "Don't fight it Gaby, I know you want this as much as I do." He said between kisses. "W-w-wait--" I was appaled when he suddenly insert his hands inside my shirt and make their way to my taunted nipples. "Arrrrghh... Kiefer-- oh shit that feels so good oh." I really can't control myself from gasping loud, the feeling of his hands in my bare breast is just so overwhelming. I've never been this "bold and bulgar" when making out with a man--of course siya lang naman ang lalakeng naka make-out ko ng ganito, hindi lang naka first-base, naka home run pa. And he's the only man I let, that get to touch every part of my body.
"You taste like strawberry Gaby." After saying that he licked my earlobe and bit it. That alone, could send me to frenzy. "Damn Gaby, you're giving me a hard time, you know that?!" Tila nahihirapang saad niya. Nakikita ko sa mga mata niya ang matinding pagpipigil. "I-I don't know what to say---" hindi maapuhap ang tamang salita na sasabihin ko. I literally lost of words to say. May kung ano sa mga mata niya that says look at me, and I did, I can see longing, lust and love? The way he looks at me, nakakaliyo. Gusto kong umasa that he feels something for me, kahit konti lang, I know I sound so desperate but I will do anything just for him to love me.
"You said you love me right? Can you say that again sweetheart? I really want to hear it again." He's saying those words as if his life depends on it. Napadako naman bigla ang tingin ko sa kanya only to find out that he's looking intently into my eyes, as if waiting for me to say those words again. I took a deep breath and swallowed hard na para bang may kung anong nakabara sa aking lalamunan.
What will I do now? He's asking--no, more like begging me to say those words to him again. I don't want him to get the satisfaction he needs by telling him what I feel towards him. I bet he's gonna use that to take control of me and that's not cool. Dahil alam ko sa oras ma aminin ko ulit yon, gagawin niya lahat ng bagay para lamang mapasunod ako sa mga gusto niyang gawin--dahil alam ko sa sarili ko na hindi ko naman siya matatanggihan. "Gaby, come on, I know what I heard, and you said You.Love.Me, I'm just asking you to say it again, I want to hear it again, please?" Oh gosh! "This is not making any differences with you Kiefer, n-nasabi ko na, d-do I have to say it again? Gosh! You're loving this." Pinaningkitan ko siya ng mga mata. "Well, I just want to hear it again, what's wrong with that? I'm actually offended with you--thinking that I'm loving this--us having this conversation, but I wouldn't mind, I.Just.Want.To.Hear.It.Again. say it again please, say it sweetheart." Nakangiting saad niya. I can feel my body trembling for I don't know the reason. I bit my lips, I can feel his muscles tensed up a bit. Excitement is written all over his face, like any moment, lulupasay siya sa lupa. What will I do now? Should I say it again? What for? If I say it again will he love me back? Maraming namuong tanong sa utak ko, na kahit ako nahihirapang bigyan ng kasagutan.
"I love you. There I said it!" Biglang bulalas ng bibig ko, shit! Ang sarap palang sabihin ulit pakiramdam ko pati buong katawan ko namula sa sobrang kahihiyan. Napakagat labi na lamang ako para pigilan ang kilig na nararamdaman ko. By then he hugged me tight--so tight that I couldn't feel my body, I gasped when I felt his lips on my neck, he's making tiny kisses there that sure send me to frenzy. I closed my eyes and hugged him back. Hay... I can't believe I said it--again. I really love this man.
What will happen to me now?
