Winter's Widow pt 1!

Just Be

*it had been 2 weeks since the incident and Bucky was still upset with you. He slept on the opposite side of the bed.. he didn't glance at you in the shower.. he didn't use any excuse to be close to you... you really messed up with this one. He wouldn't touch you or really even talked to you but he was constantly watching you...Everyone had their eyes on you two.. they knew what was going on... you needed some air. You walked to the edge of the new fencing Tony had installed.. you just watched the trees blow in the wind.. that's when you saw him. The Winter Soldier... well it was really Bucky.. boy this is confusing.. James.. you'll call him James. He sat there watching you from the tree line. He didn't move.. he didn't approach you.. all he did was watch and you felt... safe. Someone calls your name and you turn around to see who it is... it's Steve. When you turn back around James was gone*
Steve- Y/N! Bucky wants you back inside..
*You roll your eyes*
Y/N- I might be carrying his child but I am not physically his child.. and I'm staying outside.. it's beautiful out here! *You stretch your arms out to the side* and it's suffocating in there.
*Steve touches your shoulder and you step out of his reach*
Steve- you know he's just trying to protect you
*You finally snapped and you turn away from Steve and start screaming to the woods*
Y/N- yeah well I have the entire Avengers team here to protect me!! I need him to be my Husband!! I need him to hold me at night and tell it's okay... not sleep on the other side of the bed or worse the fucking floor!! Does he realize what I went through?!? I thought I was gonna die!!! That our child and Peter were gonna die!! I didn't know what kind of Winter Soldier was about to appear.. one that loves me or hated me or what!! And yet all Bucky has done is ignore me and make me feel like shit for lying to him!!! I don't need a fucking protector Steve!!! *You break down and cry... you drop to the grass* I need Bucky..
*As you were ranting and screaming Bucky came out of the house and stood by Steve... he heard everything you said but you didn't realize he was there. Steve starts to speak but Bucky stops him.... you hear foot steps in the grass.. he's leaving.. you feel two hands wrap around you.. one real.. one metal. He picks you up and you cry into his chest*
Bucky- I'm so sorry y/n... I was so... I was... there's no excuse for how I've been acting. I hope you can forgive me.
*You burry you're head into his chest and he takes you inside to your room and sets you down*
Bucky- let me make it up to you.. please.
*He kisses you.. at first you were stiff not sure if you were ready to forgive. But your resolve slowly faded and you wrapped your arms around his neck. He pulls you into his arms and moves you towards the bed. You lay down gently pulling him down with you. You were still crying.. you had been holding everything in and now it just won't stop. Bucky breaks the kiss and kisses away a tear*
Bucky- I'm sorry
*He kisses away another*
Bucky- so sorry
*He kisses away one that had fallen to you chest*
Bucky- I'm sorry
*He kisses away every tear you cried while apologizing and comforting you*
Bucky- I'm sorry.. you didn't deserve to be treated that way... you mean the world to me.. I'm such an idiot.. please forgive me.
*He finally kisses you again as he sits you up. He lifts off his shirt and you run your fingers down his chest. He lifts your off and pulls you against him gently. He lays down with you in his arms and continues to kiss you. He takes off his pants and underwear.. he then kisses his way down your body and slides off your sweat pants.. and you weren't wearing underwear. Bucky smiles and lays gentle kisses on your clit. You were not in the mood to do this right now but the last thing you wanted to do was reject Bucky after he was finally talking to you. He then pulled you into his arms and just laid there... he rested your head on his chest and he wrapped his arms around your body running his hands along your back. It was like he could read your mind.. you just wanted to be close to him... and that's what he did. You laid there in Bucky's arms for who knows how long.. you both fell asleep in one another's embrace... you were glad you had this moment to just be with Bucky.. When you wake up however.. all bets are off... it's been 2 weeks after all.*