Winter's Widow pt 1!

Slow F*ck Day pt1

*Bucky sets you down and takes your face in his hands*
Bucky- Thank you for this y/n *He smiles* I know you've been exhausted lately and this is gonna be a lot-
*You gently kiss him... almost like a feather brushing his lips.. you smile*
Y/N- I'm wide awake and I feel great Bucky.. *You rub his sides.. you pull him back to the bed with you.. He chuckles*
Bucky- I love you y/n
Y/N- I love you too Bucky...
*You guide him to sit down on the bed and he does.. you grab the hem of his shirt and slowly lift it off. You let your hands run along his chest.. you see the place where he had clawed at during his nightmare last night.. you look at him and he give you a sheepish look and you smile*
Y/N- do you want me to help you with it? *He gently smiles and nods*
*You clean it up and bandage it... you kiss the bandage and you feel tears drip onto your face.. you just reach up and caress his face as you kiss his scars.. he kisses your hand. You move and kiss his lips.. he wraps his arms around your body and his hands rest right below your butt.. he runs his hands up your body as you kiss him*
Bucky- I want to feel you, baby..
*you lift your shirt off and settle back into his arms... He unhooks your bra and lets it fall off of you. He lifts you into his lap and then turns you over on your back. He kisses your neck and down your chest. He kisses your breast as you run your hands through his hair... You settle back on the pillows and he rests his head against your breast and wraps his arms around you*
Bucky- It was horrible y/n... *You feel hot tears drop to your chest.. you rub his back as he tells you about his dream*

Bucky- I was laying there unable to move... I could feel the water and the snow... I felt the wind on my face. *He cry's even more* I felt my skin Burning as they did this.. *He motions to his arm... You take his metal hand and kiss it.. you place it against you face... and move it down your neck and move it across your breast... You run it down you body and lay it across your stomach and leave it there... resting right on your Baby, Winnie*
Y/N- You're here... with me. *Bucky gently smiles.. he rubs your belly with his metal hand* have you though about-
Bucky- No... I- I'm not ready..
Y/N- okay... *You lift his head to look at you* okay... *You kiss him and shift down to where your breast are pressed against his chest.. you roll on top and rub his chest.. you can't tell he is still thinking about the dream*
Y/N- Tell me Bucky what do you feel now? *You press your warm hands against his chest.. he hums at the feeling* is it cold? *You move your hands along his torso.. he shakes his head no* it's it painful? *You kiss his neck and down his chest*
Bucky- No baby
Y/N- Is it hard and unforgiving *You gently move his hands to your breast. He rubs and caresses them as you stroke his face... he doesn't answer he just sits up and wraps his arms around you and gently kisses you*
Bucky- It's perfect... *He rolls over again* warm, soft, delicate, forgiving, *He tears up* and so filled with love...
*You pull him into a kiss... he says against your lips*
Bucky- I need more baby... please.
Y/N- It's all about you today Bucky..
*He stands up and pulls you into his arms.. your lips never leave his. You slip your hand in the waistband of his sweats and pull them down.. your finger tips graze his thighs as you work them down.. he steps out of them and does the same to you.. he picks you up and lays you back down. He kisses you as he rubs your thigh.. he pulls one leg up and settles between them as he rubs up your thigh and your ass.. you rub his back and his ass.. moving the material of his boxer briefs as you do..he speaks against your lips again, not wanting to separate them*
Bucky- Take them off... please. I wanna feel your hands baby..

*You don't speak. All you do is kiss him deeper and slide your hands in his underwear... you pull them down as much as you can... Bucky sits up a little and You remove yours. He settles back down and Kisses you... he continues to rub your now naked body and you do the same.. you feel him against you.. you feel him needing you more and more*
Y/N- you wanna roll over baby?
Bucky- Not yet... I just want to stay like this..
*He kisses your neck and grinds against you*
Bucky- This feels too good to stop and I know what's next is even better.. *You both laugh* but I just want to take in every inch of you.. replace every cold and hard memory of this day with warm and soft moment right here.. *He starts to tear up* I want you to know I don't expect you-
*You caress his face*
Y/N- Bucky I know *You kiss him and kiss away the tears* I know baby... but how many times do I have to tell you *He chuckles through the tears* I want to do this... it's not just the sex baby and I know that.. every year I feel we chip away a little more of this horrible day and we get closer to you erasing that reminder... *He kisses you hand* and I will do whatever you need me to.. *Bucky kisses you and presses his body against your even more.. you moan and he smiles*
Bucky-Then let me take my time.. *You smile* I love knowing that I can make you feel good... especially today...
Y/N- Okay Bucky... take all the time you need...
*He kisses you as he starts his movement again he holds on to you even tighter, like he does after his nightmares*
Y/N- Talk to me baby
Bucky- I never want to let you go.. I let you go once and you fell.. you felt the same things I did... the worst day of my life I gave to the person I love the most.. every year when I relive the train I think of what I did to you.. *He kisses you* I'm sorry baby...
*You tear up and kiss him back... you don't speak you just listen... he knows that you forgive him, he just needs to get this all out.. you guide him on*
Y/N- What else baby.. just let it out..
Bucky- Most days the arm doesn't bother me.. you have helped me accept it but today... *He kisses you* today I hate it.. I hate looking at it and seeing it.. having the metal touch your skin and get to feel your body instead of- *He stops and just looks at you* I'm sorry you have a broken man as a husband.. I'm sorry my touch isn't as comforting as it could be because it will already be part metal. I-
*You cut him off with a kiss.. you move your hands down his arms.. you take his metal hand in yours.... You guide his real one down and You rest it between your legs*
Y/N- then feel me with this one... and I'll hold your metal one... *You grind against his hand and he kisses you* you're not Broken Bucky.. you're perfect.... I love your metal arm... the way it warms up when I've been laying on it *Bucky chuckles and kisses you* the way you never let it hold you back... it is a perfect visual of who you are-
Bucky- Broken-
Y/N- No.. *You flip him over and lift his metal arm above his head* the cool exterior *You rub his metal arm* mixed with the soft, warm side. *You rub his chest and real arm* firm, solid, and dependable mixed with forgiveness, gentleness, and love.. it's you baby. It's all you.. *You kiss him and roll off.. he takes you in his arms and holds you.. he looks down at you*
Y/N- You ready baby?
*Bucky nods and you kiss him as he positions himself between your legs... he pushes in and moans.. you arch of the bed and grip his arms... you turn and kiss his metal one as you squeeze his real one*
Y/N- Mmhmm Bucky...
Bucky- I love you y/n..