It's still months till the wedding, but i've already written my vows. everything in my vows pretty much explained my love for luke. how it was like my heart stopped every time i saw his beautiful facr. how i want him to be the source of my happiness how is the source of my happiness.
"michael..." luke sang walking over with eggs. "we should go out tonight. like, partying." i laughed at the thought of how we met at a party. the memories of that night were still hazy - everything except luke. he was clear.
"hmm..." i smiled and nodded. "you're so cute when you smile." he kissed my cheek. "no i'm not." i said putting eggs onto my fork and into my mouth. "shutup," he snaps, "yes you are." i frowned falsely. "don't tell me to shutup." he sighed. "fine..."
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later that night we walked to the closest party.
i thought about the parties i'd gone through throughout my years in high school. they were outrages and often, my own. i threw them at places i knew were vacated and i never got caught.
as we walk towards the door, my had gripping luke's tightly. i could see the stares of many people. their eyes were filled with judgment, hate. they were terrifying.
"it's okay michael." luke said assuringly. i let my frown disappear, but not my fear. i was terrified. no one even knew i was gay. it's always been a secret. i kept it from everyone. until i met luke. i just fell in love and i couldn't help it.
"fags!" "homos!" "freaks!"
i pause. "luke did you hear that?" he looked at me curiously, "no. what'd you hear?"i calmed down, "oh, nothing." he intertwines our fingers again, "are you sure?" he smiled. i smiled back "yup." i say admiring him, "i'm with you."
and we walked into the party.
(a/n:)
i'm going to talk to the guy i like and be like "i'm trying to lessen my anxiety by talking to you, so, hello" (this being after he found out i like him and after we texted for about 3 days in a row until he never answered.)
-ashley xx
