Luke and i made our way to a new pizza parlor not to far from here. He kept looking at me worried and i smiled at him every time, assuring him i was fine. He looked at me as if i were weak, but he looked weaker than i did. Like, if i hug him, he'd shatter. He was frail and looked tired so often.
We walked in to the pizza parlor and made our way to a back booth. "Are you sure you're okay?" He asked placing his hand on mine. "Don't do that." "Don't do what?"
"Don't be cute. You needed time, Luke." He sighed and removed his hand. As he looked at his menu i glanced at him. He looked confused and i was confused myself.
We ordered a medium sized pizza and stole glances thinking the other didn't see. It was awkward, like most of our 'hang outs.'
About an hour later, we said our goodbyes and made our ways home.
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Luke's Point of View
I checked my watch to see it was 4:45 P.M and i needed to go the doctor. I hopped in my car and made my way there. My stomach twisted in knots as i approached the small building.
[To: Mothership]
[4:58 P.M]
I made it to the doctor
i opened the front door into the building. "Hi, my name's luke hemmings. I was supposed to come in today." She looked at her computer screen, searching for my name. "Oh, you'll be in in a minute or two. Please wait here." She smiled reassuringly and gestured to the seats near her desk.
I took a seat and glanced at the people surrounding me. A little boy with a bald head and frail body. "Cancer." i thought to myself. I saw an older lady hacking up a lung. "Common cold." I thought. I did this for everyone around me.
"Mr. Hemmings, the doctor is ready for you." The secretary said. I picked myself up off the seat and made my way down a hall that smelt of old people and medicine.
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I stared at the ceiling blankly. I need to do it. I had so many things to decide. I started with michael.
I did like him, but it says just about everywhere that being gay is wrong. My mind has been stuffed with that since i was young and i don' think it'd be right to defy the bible.
I twisted and turned in bed. I tried falling asleep to escape my thoughts, but i couldn't sleep. So, i scrolled through twitter and instagram.
I stayed up until three in the morning scrolling through michael's instagram, making sure not to like a photo that was around 70 weeks old.
(a/n:)
Same luke
chapter 16 question:
what's your favorite movie?
