Center of My Hatred

5 - Non-Existant Disorders

Kaelynn's P.O.V.

                                            "So, how was your first day of college?" Char asked me as I drove her home from school.

"It was good. I met this girl. She seems okay." That's all I could say. That's what I'm suffering from too. I'll just say short sentences, and they won't even be interesting.

"What's her name?"

"Rebecca. She's a freshman too, but is really small. Yet, a bit intimidating." I couldn't tell Charlize about that Mason dude just yet. I couldn't decide if her reaction would be teasing and taunting, or disconcerning and uncaring.

"Wow. I would love to meet her."

When we got home, Tam was the only one there.

"Where's Ti?" I asked the redheaded twin.

"Oh, with her boyfriend," Tam answered with a small smile.

I nodded then went up to my room. I spend time alone a lot. What else could I do? My life's been ruined in the blink of an eye. No mom to talk about my day with. Yeah, I have Char. But, it's not the same. Just of the thought, I started rubbing my exposed legs.

Tyson was in the room also, on my bed to be exact. He was curled into a ball, fast asleep. I didn't even notice he was in my room until just then. Shrugging, I changed into night shorts and an oversized shirt, then climbed into bed. I wasn't going to eat dinner, and I was a bit tired from today. Come to found, Rebecca and I have three classes together. Great, I guess. She hasn't warmed up to me, as far as I know.

There was a knock on my door, and Char's fluffy head popped in. "Kay, the pizza's here!"

"I'm not hungry," I muttered.

"Come on, Kay. You have to eat, 'cause I don't want you to develop an eating disorder."

I understand where she was coming from, but not eating isn't an eating disorder. It's not like I was starving myself or anything. I'm just not hungry.

"I'm not developing an eating disorder, and I would like for you to stop saying that," I snapped, instantly regretting it.

But it was as if it had no affect on my little sister. I was ashamed to admit that she was used to this behavior from me. "I'll save you a couple of slices, Kay. Good-night."

She closed the door, and I sat there and sighed. I didn't mean to snap at her like that. And the thing about it was that she didn't act all rude towards me. And that's why I love her so much.

I got up to turn the light out, plunging the room into darkness. Whilst finding my spot again, I accidentally hit Tyson with my hand, causing him to yelp. Oops. Once I was in my spot, I snuggled under the covers and tried to go to sleep. A light tapping noise came from my window, but I ignored it. I'm probably getting Schizophrenia now, with just my luck. Within a couple of minutes I was asleep.

***

The next day was pretty much the same. Got up, showered, took Char to school, threw on comfy-yet-nice clothing, and scraped my hair into a ponytail. The only difference about today was that I ate my pizza from last night. See? No disorder.

"You are not going to wear a ponytail all year, are you?" Tiara instigated.

"Maybe," I challenged with a smirk as I went downstairs to feed the dogs and Zesty.

I heard more tapping and my body froze. It repeated twice. Maybe I do have schizophrenia.

"There's a bug on the window, and it's aggravating me!" Tam shouted from the living room, making me relax. It was just Tam, nothing to get worried about.

I fed the dogs and took care of them, and then the three of us left for campus. Or college. Whatever.

"Hi!" I greeted to Rebecca when I saw her in her spot. I was determined to make new friends! Or not. I don't know what's going on with me.

"Hey," she responded, staring at a tree a few yards in front of her.

"Pretty nice tree, huh?" I joked.

Rebecca shrugged. "I guess. They look like crap compared to the ones I live by, but...oh well. Not all trees can be beautiful."

I'm starting to like her more. I think. I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion. I don't know anything anymore!

"Kaelynn!" I heard someone shout. Then, there he was, strolling towards me.

Mason.

A smile slipped onto my face as I felt it heat up a bit. My hands started sweating, and I felt my heart beat out of my chest. My legs felt wobbly, and--

Wait, why am I feeling like this? I haven't even known the dude for two days, and I'm feeling like this! What has came over me??? Rebecca was right. Stupid lady charmer.

"Hi, Kaelynn," he said, stopping in front of me.

And you know what I said? Nothing! I could not say a thing, despite my thoughts not even two seconds before!

"Kaelynn?" He questioned.

"She can't speak," Rebecca pointed out, glaring at Mason.

"I'm aware, Reba."

"It's Rebecca!" She hissed.

Okay, I don't know if it's me, but I sense some history between the two.

Mason turned back to me. "So, how was your first day?"

HE ASKED ME HOW MY FIRST DAY WAS!!! Wait, I don't care! "It was good," I finally said, slowly so I wouldn't slur my words together.

"That's cool. Hey, are you going to the game next week?"

"Wait, your games already start thus early?!?"

"Well, yeah. He practice over the summer too. Are you?"

He seemed really sincere, but I'm not sure. I don't think I can take the pressure of being surrounded by all those people in the stands. I'd probably start to freak out and make a fool out of myself. So, that's a no.

"Sorry. I have to watch after my little sister." Okay, that technically wasn't a lie. I do have to look after my sister. Every day. Just to feel better, and know she's safe. I can't bear to lose her too.

"Well, she can come too!"

Why did he want me there so bad? Besides, I'm pretty sure Ti and Tam will be there, so somebody has to look after Georgia, Tyson, and Zesty.

"I got pets. Sorry." I shrugged.

"Oh. That's cool. Maybe you could come to the next one?"

I smiled at him. "Yeah, maybe."

With another smile, he walked away, and I felt my body relax once more. Rebecca was shaking her head at me, an all-knowing look on her face.

"What?" I questioned.

"You just got sucked into the world of Mason McAdams. Just like the rest of us." Rebecca smirked a little, and then the bell rung. I sighed and went to follow ber inside.

A/N: A photo edit of the girls. I want to give a shout out to BBluva-14Swag for giving me support recently. Thank you!

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