Hindi ako tuluyan pumasok sa room nanatili lang ako sa tabi ng pinto dahil dumoble ang nararamdaman kong kaba. Iginala ko ang paningin ko at nakita silang nakatingin sa aken. May pagkamangha ang kanilang paningin sa akin.
Ang iba ay tila may galit na nararamdaman sa akin na nagmumula sa kababaihan. Ang pinaka pinagtaka ko ay takot sa kanilang muka. Nagtataka ako bakit sila makakaramdam ng takot. Ang apat na sulok na kwarto na kanina ay sobrang maingay ngayon naman ay sobrang tahimik na akala mong walang tao.
"Move."
I startled when I heard a hard voice behind me. Mahina lang ang pagkakasabi niya pero dinig na dinig ko dahil na sa likod ko lang siya. Instead of obeying him, I remained rooted in my place. Ang kaba na nararamdamam ko kanina ay nahaluan na ng takot. Takot sa taong nasa likuran kahit hindi ko pa siya nakikita.
Nakita ko ang tingin na ibinibigay sakin ng tao sa kwarto. Pity. That is what I can see in their eyes. The moment I lowered my head to not see their stares is the moment I feel the hard push.
"Oww..." I cried when my body harshly hit the ground. I tried to use my arms to support myself from falling pero bumigay din ang braso ko sa lakas ng tulak at hina ng katawan ko.
"Kawawa naman kabago bago palang nasampulan agad."
"Nakakatakot talaga si Saxton."
"Mabuti nga sayo papansin ka masyado."
"Do not block his way. One of his rules."
Ang kaninang tahimik na kwarto ay biglang umingay ulit napuno ng samu't saring bulungan. Patuloy na umaagos ang mga luha ko sa mata ko dahil masyadong masakit ang pagbagsak ko at walang nag aabalang tumulong sa akin. Gusto ko ng umuwi.
Dahan dahan kong tinaas ang mukha ko na punong puno ng mga luha para makahingi ng paumahin. I gasped in surprised when I saw a green eye that staring back at me. He has this sharp, and dark looked to me that made me cower.
"I-I'm sorry, I b-blocked your way." I stuttered because of fear and the pain that spreading to my whole body. Nasa sahig padin ako kaya sinubukan ko itayo ang sarili ko para makadaan siya. Pinilit ko ang sarili ko na makatayo kahit nanginginig na sakit ang tuhod ko.
When I finally stand, my body trembles, but I push myself to move a little, but a stabbing pain in my hips made me go back to the floor. Fortunately, the green-eyed man quickly wrapped his strong arm around my waist.
"O-oww... too tight."
"Fuck!" He shouted and loosened his hold.
Hindi ko alam kung imahinasyon ko lang pero ang maingay na paligid ay biglang nalang tumahimik ulit. Nagulat ako ng hawakan niya ko sa ilalim ng hita at binuhat. Nilagay ko ang braso ko sa leeg niya sa takot na mahulog. I felt his other arm supporting my back.
His jaw is clenched as I look in his side profile. I should be angry at him, but I cannot get just angry. Hindi kasama sa emosyon ko ang galet dahil hindi ito magandang emosyong. Anger does nothing. It causes problem and pain dahil pag galit hindi natin mapigilan ang sarili magsalita ng kung ano-ano na nakakasakit na pala ng kapwa.
His hand under my legs moves. Napakislot ako ng maramdaman kong sumayad ang kamay niya malapit sa pang upo ko. Gumalaw ako dahil nakaramdam ako ng kaiba ng madaan niya yon.
"Stay still. Your skin is showing in this fucking skirt."
Tumigil ako sa paggalaw sa bisig niya at ramdam kong nagsimula na siyang maglakad palabas bitbit ako. My eyes slowly closed as the pain drained out my body. "Thank you." I said eventhough he is the cause of it.
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Sa pagmulat ng mata ko ang puting ceiling ng kwarto ang bumungad sa akin. I tried to get up, but the pain kept me.
Wala akong kasama sa kwarto. Wala ako masabihan sa sakit na nararamdaman ko. When the pain surged through, I started crying. Mama and Papa is not here to take my pain away.
They have this magic that they do whenever I am in pain. One kiss is all it takes. They will just stop kissing it if I felt the pain is gone.
Bumukas ang pinto ng kwarto. I stop crying when I see the green eye man entered the door. He has this sharp look again and it really scares me. I removed my eyes to him and closed my eyes. I can't stop my hiccups coming from my mouth as the pain is still there. I want Papa and Mama.
"Open your eyes." His baritone voice filled the room.
I didn't open my eyes to scared to face him. I kept my eyes shut. A gasped escaped my mouth when he touched my hips.
"Oww..." I moaned in pain.
"Obey." He commanded in his authoritative voice.
Tumingin ako sa kanya at nakitang nakatingin din siya. Hindi ko ibinababa ang tingin ko sa kanya kahit na natatakot ako.
Despite having this fear in me I can't help myself to not look at him. I studied his face. His eyes are very hooded and sharp and also his green eyes is dark when he is serious like now.
I like his green eyes.
His arched brows made him colder and more serious. His nose is straight and very pointed. How is that possible? His black hair is effortless good. His lip is thin but full.
"You are handsome, and I like your eyes it's so green." I said in my mind.
He smirked. He pulled the chair beside me and sits. "I know."
Did I say it out loud? Mukang ganon nga. Namula ako at nag-iwas ng tingin sa kanya. My eyes widened when I see some formation of bruise in the arm that I used as a support.
Now how can I tell Mama and Papa my first day here in school. If they will know this, maybe I'll be back to homeschool. I know I'm not that excited to go in this school because it scares me a lot and the guy beside me really scares me a lot, but I realized that I actually want it. I want a new environment, experience and to have many friends. I'm just in denial but the group of friends I meet earlier gives me a little insight to the world.
The reality in the world is not the same in our house. People in our house is all kind and always there for me. They help me every time because it's their job but here they don't because no one paid them to give me their attention. Even I am already lying in the floor and crying my tears out no one will help. Maybe someone will but it's like a blue moon.
This green eye man. The one who cause my body aches. What is he doing here? Is he here to say sorry but I think not because his attention is in the magazine. He should say sorry to me when he got closer to me, but he did not because he do not have any intention to apologize.
"I know we do not know each other b-but can you k-kiss my body to take the pain away because it is really hurting." I said and bit my lip. Mama is not here to take the pain.
His expression darkened and he slightly stiffened in his seat. He uncrosses his legs and look at her body. His eyes are flickered with something I can't name off.
I closed my eyes and take a deep exhale. I glance and smile cutely at him. "Y-You gave the pain might as well take it."
BINABASA MO ANG
Her Innocence
Ficción General"You love me?" I giggled. His breathe hitched for a second then he laugh. "To say I love you is an understatement, baby." His hands slipped into my skirt. "How about you, my baby? Do you love me?" He buried his face in my neck. Using my fingers, I...
