Her Innocence

CHAPTER 35

My mind went completely black. I'm not sure what to say or if I should say anything pa. I might say something stupid once more. Oh, my dear god. Why didn't I look into it and assume that his parents were still alive... Oh, my goodness. I'm really stupid.

"I'm so-sorry, I didn't know," my voice came out low and shaky, as tears immediately clouded my eyes. I felt more stupid when Saxton didn't speak or move in his stiff position. I will admit that I am really stupid. Why didn't I know anything about him? Just why? I don't know his birthday. I didn't know that his parents are not living in this life now... and he is already orphaned. Does he have any siblings?

I started to lightly scratch my arm as I forced myself to not let my tears out. I should not be crying right now, but I just can't help it. I love Saxton. I love him... so much. And it hurts me that I didn't know anything about him. Whereas I believe he knows everything about me, does he?

"It's fine, baby, you didn't know," he said softly, still on his back, but no matter how tender his voice, there's a hint of anger in his voice that I can't pinpoint if it was directed at me or others. But, instead of calming me down, his words did the opposite, they made me scratch my arm even more, because he was right. I didn't know anything about him.

"You should go to sleep, baby, it's late," he said more softly this time, and when I saw that he was slowly turning, I immediately stopped scratching my arm and leaned to turn off the camera, afraid to let him see what I looked like. When I saw my now-red arms and visible red scratches, a hiccup escaped in my mouth, but I didn't mind as I swallowed to clear my throat.

"Yeah, I w-will. I'm sorry again, Saxton," I said, regretful of my words and seeing his forehead turning into some frown lines. "Open your camera, baby," he commanded, but I didn't.

"Baby," he sternly said, as his jaw was tightly clenched, thick eyebrows that complimented his undeniably gorgeous green eyes.

And when he's angry, he's even more attractive, which is why I've forgotten why I'm crying and feeling so bad inside. My cheeks were burning, so I put my hands in my face. Oh my goodness! Get a grip on yourself, Ayah. My emotions are all over the place.

"Did you just cry, baby?" he remarked, which threw me off guard.

"N-No," I stammered, hoping he'd believe, but he didn't. Shame on me.

I can feel his gaze burning holes in the screen as he groaned. "Do not lie to me, I know your entire voice, I remembered it all, when you cried, when you were pleased, sad, delighted, angry, or even after you cum. So don't lie to me."

What?! What did he just say?

"If you cried because of my parents, don't be baby, it's very fine to me and if you're upset because you didn't know, it's also fine to me baby," he paused, his face softening and his gaze lightening on the screen. "And, love, I know what you're thinking right now," he murmured.

"No, you don't," I stated almost in whispers.

He leans back in his swivel chair. "Yes, I know, because all those times we were together, all I did was stare at you, memorize you." He paused and licked his lips before forming a smirk.

I can't speak. I really can't when I'm smiling like a child who receives her first gift when earlier she was crying over herself.

"Yeah, that seems crazy, but what can I do? I'm crazy about you. You make me crazy from the moment I see you till now, and in those almost two months, I fell harder and crazy in love with you," Saxton continued, and I butted in before he spoke again.

"And you made me fall too," I admitted to him. Remembering Mama's words about me having a boyfriend is very quick when I just started school, I can say that it is very quick, but I know in my heart that this will last a lifetime.