FutsuYuri: I Wanted To Reincarnate Normally!! Not In This Yuri Game!!

Chapter 68

Nikami POV

"Shit I said that outloud…. ?" Raijin noticed what she just said and covered her mouth.

"I-I meant like, being engaged you know!? I'm not your best friend, I-I'm your fiance!" Raijin frantically tried to defend herself, moving her hands around as she turned even more red. 

"Raijin, I'm not dumb okay?" I glared at her, before covering my face as I felt it heat up as well. I don't want to make her see my face, I can't. I have to… Look normal… 

"Ugh… I… Listen, it's… AAAUGGHH!! I'M NOT A COWARD OKAY?! I'M SAYING IT!! I'M SAYING IT!! I LIKE YOU OKAY?!?" With embarrassment, Raijin just gave up and yelled that. Then slowly falling lower into the bed and felt her already weak body be limp. 

"I CAN'T!!! I CAN'T. I JUST CAN'T?? HOW CAN I??? KEEP CALM?????????????????????????? THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE, THAT'S VERY IMPOSSIBLE. Okay!! You can't keep calm, that's fine, yes, that's totally alright. That's okay!! Just… Just, just don't let her see you are flustered. How did I not see…? Now that I think about it, she dropped multiple hints hasn't she?! How are you THIS dense Nikami?! Really?? You haven't seen through the hints??? Despite observation is one of the talents you are extremely good at! You fool! You are such a fool! Okay, stop beating yourself over something that has already passed, now think of what to do currently, how do you deal with this?!" With all of those thoughts filling my head, my head was just blaring, everything felt numb and I felt like I was set on fire. 

My face felt like it was turning into mush, my heart was beating so fast you might think it's a horse running… For the first time, I was actually panicking. And it's not like I could solve this problem logically. 

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Silence filled the room when I started to panic, both of us didn't know what to say or do. Raijin was too embarrassed to say anything while I was too busy trying to make sense of my thoughts. 

After a few minutes of piercing silence, I finally spoke up. 

"For how long?" I spoke, my voice breaking at the end and I tried to clear my throat, and I had my poker face on in time. It… Wasn't the best due to the redness in my face, but it still counted. 

"Eh…? Well… Uh… As far as I could remember… I was just… Attracted to you, the first time we met… It was like, love at first sight or something…" Raijin mumbled, still feeling limp on the infirmary bed. 

"In our past life…? That long? And you never even confessed? Not even once? I get that the past me was ridiculously naive but… Wow. You didn't even try." I blinked over at her, staring in confusion. 

"Li-listen! I just… Didn't know what to do okay?! I feel like you are so far from me yet… So close. Ugh!! I don't know!? I don't really remember much! Listen, it was more than two decades ago!" Raijin exclaimed, grumbling as she continued to look away from me. Not even trying to make eye contact. 

"In that case… I apologize. I… I didn't get the hints and hurt you when… I talk about that girl. I thought you were only irritated because you had a rival, but it wasn't that at all… You had that sad look because you were jealous. So, I deeply apologize." I bowed my head as I was sitting down on the chair. 

Raijin confusingly glanced over at me, blinking as she shook her head. 

"N-no! Why the hell are you even apologizing?! Me being hurt because… I was kinda jealous... Was on me! You had no fault in it!" Raijin tried to stop me from bowing, yet I was still in the position.