FutsuYuri: I Wanted To Reincarnate Normally!! Not In This Yuri Game!!

Chapter 102

Nikami POV

"No, I don't love Hameru. It's you, it can really only be you." Raijin took a step forward and I did the opposite movement.

"You don't, you really can't. What do I have that she doesn't? What am I to you?" I asked, glaring at her. This must be a lie. I have been completely terrible to her, I don't deserve anyone here. I'd rather go back to being the fake perfect queen than her telling those lies to me.

"Well, for starters a sense of responsibility, being sassy, blunt, and not afraid to call out weaknesses. I know you feel bad, Nika, but I-"

"WHAT DO THOSE HAVE?" I exasperated, "Against that... Melting kindness that you deserve, that you need, what do I have? I am clearly someone who isn't fit for you. Fire and ice are never meant to be together, and what did I do? I used you. I used you Raijin, she wouldn't do that. I'm a terrible person. Don't you understand that?!" I yelled at her, panting right after I did so. I don't deserve her, I don't. I need to make sure that she knows what I did, stop looking at me with your pink covered lenses and take it off! Look at the real me! I'm... Toxic.

"AND I'M A TERRIBLE PERSON TOO!" She countered my yelling with her own, hissing fire though her teeth and grabbed my shoulders. "I got jealous and lashed out on you, I wanted to keep you for myself and each time you look at that girl I immediately pull you away, I purposefully used the fact that you need me to feel like yourself to satisfy my fantasies!" She gripped my shoulders, the sudden squeeze made me sharply inhale.

"I used you too. We both used each other. As I said, Nika, we can both grow together. A lot of things went wrong, but I know and I can see that... It can really only be you. The one that I long for the most. All of your talk about being different from Hameru made me think too, am I still really the Haiki that I thought I was?" She softened her voice, looking at me eye to eye, gulping.

"And then, I decided that it didn't matter. I don't care about my identity, I don't care about who you are, I only care that I am in love with you! With YOU! Right now! My love may have been coming from someone else back then, but I know right now that I love you, why are you being so stubborn to understand that?!" She shook me, sniffling up her sobs and glared at me. I couldn't speak, not even jumbled angry garbles were said.

She softly pressed her forehead against mine, wrapping her arms around the back of my head and she closed her eyes.

"You are the only person who understands that horrifying realization of turning into someone else, you made me believe we can get through this without disappearing. That no matter what fate does to us we can make our own path and slice through any situation. I'll gladly drink any poison you give me, since I know, you don't mean harm." Light as a strand of hair, her chocolate words made me let out a small giggle.

"What are you, an idiot?"

"I always have been, if I'm completely honest." She opened her eyes, trailing her hands down to my waist and pulling me. I could taste strawberries in my tongue, paired with the sweet bitter cocoa. 

"Kiss me then, idiot." I cupped her cheeks and the last of my toxic residue fell down my cheek, flashing a light smile.

"I like how you're so demanding too, Hameru can never be like this." When she leaned forward, I parted my lips in anticipation. Landing like a feather on my lips, the heat of a candle met my mouth. My fingertips touched the side of her cheek, closing my eyes with her twinkling dilating irises. 

Her hot breath contrasted with my cold mist, our mouths parted yet I didn't open my eyes. I didn't want to, I wanted more, I needed more. 

"You're the fire raging through this frosted heart, I won't let you escape easily from my grasp."