Desire

14

Its been almost a week since Ive saw Harry and what we did in the alley way keeps replaying in my head. Louis comes and goes evey other day. I just dont know if I feel the same way about him.

Looking through my book briefly I let out a frustrated sigh. School is so frustrating and stressful. I look outside as the leaves fall. Its sadening. My phone buzzes and I sigh. Its my mother. Im suppost to visit this weekend.

Momm: hey hun. How are things?

Me: they are ok. Not too bad.

Momm: thats good. What time will you be here?

Me: most likely around 6

I put my phone down and starts my class work. I stop throwing my book on the floor. This is pointless, I cant focus. I sigh grabbing my keys throwing on my Columbia hoodie and head out into the breezy weather. Getting into the car, I start it and heads toward to coffee shop down the road.

As I get out and head inside I freeze in my spot. Their against the wall sitting at the table, Harrys holding a cup in his hand. His eyes lock with mine and I look away. I head in line and I ignore the tension hes feeding me by staring. I shift side to side and finally its my turn.

I order and wait. When my drink is done I head on the opposite side of the coffee shop sitting at a table. As Im scrolling through twitter I pretend to not see him sit across from me. God damn it.

I look up after a while staring into his tense stare. His green eyes sparkle under the lights. Hes wearing his usual black skinny jeans and I see hes wearing a baggy hoodie with Obsessed sprawled across it. I find that ironic.

"What do you want Harry?" I finally speak up. He doesnt say anything back at first, he just stares. "Nothing. What we cant talk and hang out?" He shrugs. I huff "since when do you ever want to hang out with me Harry? Ever? All you do is...." I pause and he stares and waits for me to continue. I look down and shake my head.

All he does is use me. Im nothing but a sex toy to him. I blink a bunch trying to keep back the tears. "What do I do Sam?" He says softly. I look up at him then back down. "Use me" I mumble and he doesnt say anything and I raise my eyebrows shaking my head looking up at you. "You dont say shit back because you know its true" I scoff and I grab my coffee standing up staring right into his eyes.

I dont know whats gotten to me, the fact that I want him more than anything and he uses me isnt right. "Harry, look...Im sure your a great person but your doing all the wrong things to the wrong person. Im not the type of person who sits around and gets used. Im sorry" he goes to say something but I stop him.

I shake my head and I walk away and I go to my car. I go in it and just sit their. Im sure I did the right thing here. Did I? I sigh starting the car after a while and drives back to campus.

When I get back Louis is waiting and sitting on my bed. I smile at him sitting down. "Hey" I mumble. "Hey, whats up?" he glances at me and i shrug. "Nothing. Got some coffee" I chuckle and he moves closer to me.

Theirs a knock at the door and I sigh getting up. When I open the door Harry looks at me and sighs. "Look Sam I dont me-" he adverts his gaze towards whats behind me. He looks at me and shakes his head. "Nevermind" he mumbles and quickly goes down the corridor.