Desire

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HARRYS POV

Watching the smoke rise into the air, I sigh. Flicking the ash off my cigerette, I look around casually. Another grudgy night at the club.

Inhaling more smoke into my lungs, I reminance in the time when I first started smoking.

I remember the taste of it as I first inhaled the toxic shit into my lungs. Saying I regret it, isnt all that true. Trying it, I was 14 and with some of my dumb junky friends.

Closing my eyes, I remember stealing one from my dads pack, his nasty habit took a toll on me. Im not a big addict to them but ocasionally Id have a few or so, depending on how stressed I am or how I feel. Lately it has been 3 a day.

Looking at everyone moving around me, I watch as people pour in and out of the door, several at a time. Adverting my eyes to my boots, I smile. Sam got me these for Christmas. I hardly wear them because I have a high fear Id ruin them.

Closing my eyes once more, Images of her flash through my mind like a photo gallery. A smile slowly creeps onto my lips.

The voices around me, disappear and all that is, is her. Her long brown hair that always smells like flowers and laundry freshner. Her cute little nose, the way she smells like flowers and vanilla. Her laugh echos through my mind like a song on replay. Sighing, I open my eyes staring up at the black sky.

Finishing the rest of the cigerette, I head back inside to the crowded place. Pushing my way through, I could feel several hands touch me. The feeling is rather unsettling than usual.

Taking a seat at the bar, I get Jays attention, ordering up another drink. The man who got me into being the shitty self I am, sits next to me. He orders a drink too and looks over at me.

"Luke" I say, looking away. "Harry, why havent I seen you around here?" I shrug and I sit back in my chair messing with my pack of cigerettes. "We miss you man" Luke says as Jay places our drinks in front of us. 

"Well I wouldnt say the same" I say simply and Luke gives me a look that would be considered shock but he quickly recovers. "What happened to you?" he asks.

Chugging down my drink, I slam it down onto the bar. Jay gives me a warning look, knowing how quickly I get pissed.

"Nothing" I say louder and Luke shakes his head, ordering me another drink.

Looking down at the bar top, I close my eyes as my head start to pound. Ive been to this place once too many times. And so far every night since I left that damn hospital. And I dont know if its the alcohol coursing through me or the fact that just, I miss her.

I fucking miss her selfish, annoying ass. She became apart of me in ways other woman never have. I just dont know, like Louis said. Too just leave her alone. Its whats best. And that is what Im doing.

Blinking a few times, Luke nudges me. "Get your head together" he says and drinks down half of his drink. Drinking down mine, I spot Taylor dancing with some guy and I roll my eyes, looking away.

Looking at my phone, the time sprawled across the screen it says

1:24 AM

Sighing, I drink more and more until I cant see straight. Luke babbles about how the guys want to smoke with me and drink. Im not even interested, she occupies my mind.

Feeling arms wrap around me, I close my eyes. That feels good to be touched like that. "Sam" I mumble and I turn to only see Taylor.

Huffing, I pry her arms from me. "What the fuck do you want?" I snap. "Sam?" she questions, staring at me. Her eyes grow wide after a minute of confussion. "Your- you- oh my god!! Harry your in l-" before she can say anything more, I cut her off by pushing her over as she falls to the floor.

She screams and whines "Ow, you fucking asshole!!" She screams and yells at me but I simply ignore it as I take my drink and nyself to the back tables.

Sitting back, I look around me. All these assholes and slutty whores grind against eachother not giving a care in the world. How disgusting.

I drink a little more and feel the fuzzy feeling start to kick in more. Rubbing my face, I watch as Louis walks past. If he is here, that means she is here also.

Getting up, I leave my drink behind as I make my way over to where Louis stands. I nudge him "hey Lou" he nods his head at me "what's up?" I shrug "nothing. Who you with?" he eyes me warily like he knows why I'm asking.

"With Zayn, Niall and my friend Matt" I nod and I look away. So she isn't here. I wouldn't want to see her anyways.

Making my way back to my table, I sit as Luke joins me. We sit and talk for a bit of time and I spend most of my time thinking of Sam.

An: this chapter is a bit short. I'm sorry I'm sorry I took forever to update. I have a lot going on. And thank you guys so much for all of the reads. You do not know how happy that makes me! Ily guys!!
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