Desire

18

As I go out the door keeping my eyes on Harry as he leads us far down the sidewalk to the side of the building. The wind blows around us and I shiver.

He stops and once I reach him he pushes me into the wall of the building staring at me. That hurt a little, hes so rough with me.

My breathing hitches in my throat. "Why did you leave? Why would you leave me?" his grip on my waist gets tighter. "Harry I...Im sorry" I choke out, scared that Ill say the wrong thing and piss him off. "No your not Sam" he stares at me. I can feel his breathe on me.

I look down and he lifts up my head "you drive me insane" he mumble into my ear As he presses his body against mine. Im longing for him, needing him. "Harry I..." I whisper and I let out a small whimper as I feel his hand travel down my side.

"Why are you with him Sam. Why?" He says calmly. I shake my head "hes just a friend...Harry" I manage to look up at him in the darkness. He stares down at me playing with his lip ring with his teeth then letting it go.

I furrow my eyesbrows "Harry why are you here?" He doesnt say anything. "Harry?" He looks away and I shake my head managing to push him away, walking away from him going inside. I dont know why he would be here. It couldnt possibly be the reason to see me.

I head over to Louis and I smile. "Im sorry. I had to take care of some things" He nods and gets up "its all ok babe" he takes my hand and we walk out. I see Harry staring at us from where I left him just minutes ago. I look away looking to the cars. My heart is beating out of my chest. I get into the car rubbing my hands together. I watch as it starts to snow. Then my eyes drift to where Harry once stood, hes gone now.

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Louis walks me back to my dorm after having a nice dinner. It wasnt all that bad. I look at him and I smile "I had a great time." I turn to the door but he grabs my arm turning me to him and cups my face kissing me. I hesitate for a moment but I kiss back. Its not like I do have a boyfriend, only if I did.

After a while I pull away staring up at a smiling, happy Louis. "I really like you Sam" he rubs his thumb up and down my cheek. "I like you too Louis but Im not up for dating right now" its not a full out lie. I want to date but not with Louis. He nods and I know he underatands. I smile "goodnight Louis" I mumble and I turn to the door unlocking it, going inside closing the door.

I let out a big sigh and I groan throwing my bag to the floor. "Had fun?" I gasp hearing the voice in the dark room. I know who that is. "Harry, how did...you get in here?" "I have my ways" I go to turn on the light but my body is being pushed against the door. I feel his breathe down my neck. "H-H-Harry, I cant do th-" he cuts me off by kissing me. His lips are rough on mine. He unzips my jeans and I undo his buckle.

I pull away taking off his shirt and mine. we eagerly get each others clothes off. I put my fingers through his curly long hair, fisting it as his kissing turns rougher and his hands roam my body. He picks me up, holding me by my legs against the door. I gasp into the kiss feeling his length slide into me. He's wearing no condom and it feels so much better.

I put my head back as he starts to thrust in and out of me. I let out loud moans, griping his hair in my Hands. His thrusts turn more rougher and its so hard to not let go. I let out a whimper. "Harry, fuck Im so close, Im-" I moan out and his hands grip me tighter. "Your so fucking wet and tight" he whispers. Hes tensing up and I know he's close. I put my head back as his thrusts become quicker pounding into me. I let out a small scream as I climax.

His breathe becomes unsteady and he sets me down and I get on my knees moving his hand. I start to suck on his shaft. I try my best to deep throat and I end up gaging anyways. I still suck and his moans start to get louder. I squeeze his shaft lightly and open my mouth for him. He falls apart in front of me, cumming into my mouth. I stand, swallowing the cum left in my mouth, the taste unsettling. I wipe my mouth and I turn on the light.

He looks at me standing naked in front of me. I take the time to take in every detail. His hair falls short before his shoulders, such a beautiful mess on his head. his face is perfect with his pink lips and lip ring and beautiful eyes. I travel my eyes down to his chest and arms Where the different designs of tattoos litter his skin. Each one represting something to him. I take notice of his abs and muscular arms. Traveling my eyes down I see his perfect v-line that dips down to his dick. His frame stands tall before me and Im breathless just looking at him.

I look down as I notice him doing the same thing as I was, taking in my features. Im not all that beautiful. I dont have the big boobs and big ass that all the guys want but they are a decent size. Were silent, not exchanging any words. I sigh and I pick up my bra and underwear, putting them back on. I go over to the bed and laying down. I know what he will do. He will leave and I wont hear from him in days like the usual.

I cover myself with the blanket turning away staring at the wall. I can feel the pang in my chest. It always makes me feel like shit, like Im not good enough for him. I start to get angry when I hear the clanking of his belt and hearing him get dressed. I cant. I cant just sit here and not say anything and act like everything is fucking ok.

I sit up, getting out of the bed shrugging on my robe wrapping it around myself. I watch as he shoves on his shoes. He gets up looking at me. My face feels hot and Im not going to play his games anymore.

"Your fucked up Harry" I shake my head "and you know it's true" I look down then back up at him. "You think everything is ok, right? Right?!" I raise my voice. "I know your not in the right mind and I cant fucking help you with that! I feel sick just standing here thinking what kind of game you think this is?! Its not a game Harry! You can go around fucking other girls and they would be ok with it! Im not! Im not like them Harry! I have a heart! I have feelings and watching you leave every single time with out a word is just fucking wrong! Im not a toy you can just play with and leave! I want you to stay but you never do!!!" I yell.

His face stays emotionless and cold, just like he is. "Im tired of it Harry. I want someone who will be here for me and love me and care for me not someone who fucks me and leaves then toys with my emotions all the time. I..." I look to the ground. And I wipe my tears away once I realize they have spilled from my eyes.

"I want you to leave" I close my eyes tightly. This will hurt me but Im doing it for my own good. "and I dont want to see you again" I mumble and I turn away. I feel his presence come close to me and I feel his hand on my shoulder. I turn quickly shoving him away. "No Harry! Just go!!!" I yell and his face breaks and I see the pain behind his eyes. The tears spill down my face and theirs no stopping them now.

He backs away and he looks down then back at me "Sam Im so-" "No! Harry no! Your not! Your a fucked up man who doesnt know whats right and wrong! And your not the one for me!" My voice cracks and I turn away again. "Please leave Harry" I mumble. It's silent for a bit before I hear him speak. "goodbye Sam" he says and sounds hurt. I wait to hear the door close before falling to the floor in a heap of sobs.

It takes me a while but I get up laying in the bed hugging my pillow closing my eyes as tears spill down my cheeks. The only thing I can think of is

Him.