Desire

20

I start to back away and I turn away walking quickly down the corridor. "SAM!" Harry yells, but I dont stop. I run out the doors that lead outside. I look around as the snow falls and the cold air rushes against my face. Looking back, I see Harry jogging towards the door, followed my Louis. 

Running to my car, I dig into my purse and I pull out my keys unlocking my car, getting in. I lock the doors as I watch Harry come to the window. Looking forward I dont care to look at him. "Sam, please open the door." I start the car and I see Louis come. 

I cant face him, I dont trust myself to talk to him. I know Ill forgive him and let him screw me over again and again. "Pleasee Sam." I shake my head and I pull out, driving off. The snow starts to get heavier. Its already 10 at night. Where could I go?

Pulling into the coffee shop, I get out heading inside. Ordering myself some hot chocolate, I sit in the booth in the back. Scrolling through my notifications, I see 3 missed calls from Harry and 1 from Louis.

Putting my heead down, I close my eyes. I feel nothing, then it all comes crashing down on me. My body shakes from the heap of sobs and then I feel someones pressence next to me and I dont dare lift my head, I know exactly who that is. Im a fucking mess and here he is trying to comfort me, acting like he has done nothing wrong. Pathetic. 

HARRYS POV

I Stand there watching her car drive out of the lot. Louis looks at me and I know that look. He will not make me feel more worse than I already am. I look down at my snow covered boots. I feel like a total asshole. A big one. Shes all I could think about these few weeks. I take a deep breathe walking to my car, getting in. I dial her number, she doesnt answer. 

Dialing her number again, she doesnt answer and it goes to voicemail. Pushing back my hair, I try again staring at the bench outside and I notice a coffee cup sticking out from the trash can. Hanging up, I start the car and I drive. 

As I pull in, I see her car. She is here. Getting out, I go in looking around and there she is at the table with her head down. Walking over, I sit down and I look at her, seeing her body shake. How should I start this. "Sam...." she shakes her head, sniffling into her arm. 

"Im sorry. Ok? And I know you dont want to hear it but you will anyways." I sit up straight. "Ive realised I have been treating you like shit. And you dont deserve it." She still has her head down sniffling. Looking around, I sigh and I look down. "I like you Sam." I pick at the skin on my thumb. "And you should know that I never usually like someone." A minute passes and she still sits with her head down, but she lifts it looking down.

her cheeks are so pink and her nose is too and tears still travel down her face. I cant help but smile at the way she looks right now and shes not ashamed, she looks cute when she cries. I shake my head, Im stupid. 

She looks at me "what are you smiling at?" I stare at her. "You" I mumble. She wipes her tears away, shaking her head. "What do you want Harry?" I look away then nack at her. "Anotjer chance." She huffs "to what? Fuck me again? Mess with me? To destroy me?" She says calmly. I take off my beanie and I look at her.

"To make it up to you" she stares down at the table drinking her coffee or whatever she ordered. She looks like shes thinking and her mouth opens and closes. 

"Ok" she mumbles. "Ok..what?" I question her. "Ok I forgive you" she looks at me and I smile. We sit in silence for a while enjoying each others company. "So what are we?" I look at her. She shrugs "whatever you want to be" I know what she wants me to be but I dont know about the whole commiting thing. "Harry, I know you wont face it, you dont want to be trapped and have to worry about being with me and staying loyal and all" she stands.

SAMS POV

I look at him as I stand. My heart aches a little more each time I do. Even if I do want him as my boyfriend it will never happen because what I want is what he doesnt want. Were two different people bonded to fit but not having the right connection. 

"Im going to go Harry" I mumble and I head out the door into the cold air. Driving back to campus, I get out going inside and into my room. I see Louis on his phone. "Louis, Im ok" he sighs and gets up going by me, hugging me. "I just, Harry doesnt deserve you Sam." I pull away and I take off my coat.

"Louis, just leave this alone ok?" He looks down and I go and change and I hug him. "Go home and get some rest please" I look at him and I see the sadness in his eyes. He kisses my cheek and leaves. I sigh laying back and I close my eyes. 

I think of him and his piercing green eyes and long curly hair. And the way he plays with his lip ring. He is so beautiful, I cant help but picture him in my mind. I hug my pillow inhaling deeply and exhaling loudly. Within the next hour, dreaming of him, I fall asleep.

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AN: Im sorrry guys, I was in Europe for a month but now Im back home and Ill update almost every week if I can. And can you guys Please please comment if youd like a second part to this fanfic so I know what to do. PLEASE COMMENT. And thank you for waiting, Im sure some of you thought I stopped updating but no that wasnt the case. Thank you all for reading. Ily all. It means soooo much. With love// G.B.