𝐁𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐈𝐬 𝐁𝐞𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐢𝐟𝐮𝐥, 𝙗𝙡𝙖𝙘𝙠 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙧.

𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐚𝐧 𝐮𝐩𝐝𝐚𝐭𝐞, 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐦𝐞 𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠.

i've decided to take a break from wattpad, after i finish chapter zero of my yami book. i know this is selfish to say, i just honestly feel unappreciated on this app. i know i promised myself that i would just write for myself but this shit is hard, especially with these little comments (even tho i deleted them). the comments about my books flopping have really taken a toll on me because they have been flopping. all of my works have continuously flopped whether it's one of my one-shots or my recent books. the only time my work have done good where when they were smut. every time i think i've gotten the flow of my writing style, it just ends up being shit. i do apologize if i sound ungrateful or selfish but that is just how i feel. i have been feeling like shit being on here and feel like deleting my account. i've been here since i've started writing my kpop stuff when i was '97yngnrich' and none of my books have been successful. i don't know this is just how i feel. like i've been just so down.

being on here for a while and switching to like three different writing styles and having no success hurts. sometimes i really do try my hardest on all of my books and it's just a dead end for me. and i promise i'm not looking for pity i just need to vent because i am just so frustrated with myself because i have no idea what the hell i'm doing wrong. i really just have been thinking of deleting everything and never coming back because maybe i'll have to peace but idk. if i do delete, i hope that you all take care of yourselves, drink water and get proper rest.

i decided to add this in as well. i also get frustrated when people complain there's a lack of black reader stories for certain shows and then i along with other authors write for those shows and people overlook them a lot. and then continue to complain about reading white reader books for those shows. i don't know maybe that's why my stuff continuously flops.