TaeJin Short Stories

Talking to the Moon

(Short story. Kinda depressing.) Listen to attached MV
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"Hey, it's me again.
I told you I'd be back.

It's not like I really have anywhere else to go.
Especially in my condition.

You know my eomma is trying to send me away.
She thinks I'm too young to raise a baby all alone.
She's really just worried she'll be stuck raising her.

But, I will run away before I let her do that.
I don't trust her.. she'll try to steal my baby from me."

The young man rubs his oversized belly and cries.

"You know, every morning I wake up thinking that I will see you again. Because in those first few seconds before clarity hits me, I still think you're at home.
Waiting for my morning text like you used to.

But when it's all clear to me again, God.. it hurts just the same as it did that first day. And I still can't believe you just left me like that. Our baby won't ever see your face or hear your voice.

But I will tell her all about you. And how strong you were, even when you were in so much pain. You were my amazing hero.

Yeah... she will know that we loved each other.. And that I still fucking love you.

I don't care if I live to be 100 years old. I won't ever love anyone ever again. I know you told me to move on once you were gone. But there's absolutely no way I could ever do that.

You have given me a part of you and I promise I will take good care of her and raise her full of love. Just like I know you would if you could."

He sniffles and wipes his tears away.

"I already spoke to Jimin and Kookie. They agreed to take me far away the minute my eomma tries anything.

I will work at any shitty job I have to just so our daughter will have everything she needs. I probably won't be able to buy her anything fancy. But as long as she has food, shelter and clothes, then that's all that matters.

Ha-ha.. there's the neighbors again. They're always watching me from their window whenever I come outside to talk to you.

They call my parents and tell them I'm losing my marbles. And that I'm talking to myself. They are stupid and don't know that I am really talking to you. And you can hear me, right?" He asks pleadingly.

"I really hope you can. Cause I don't want to have to repeat myself when we see each other again."

"Jinnie! Are you sitting outside your window again?!"

He flinches when he hears his mother calling for him.

"I'd better go Tete, before my mother has a fit. I will come back again soon. Our baby and I love you very much. Goodnight my love."

Jin crawls through his window and climbs into his bed just as his mother walks in.

"The neighbors called me again saying you were outside. Why can't you ever listen to me? Must you always disobey me? I just don't know what to do with you anymore."

"I don't know either.. You don't want to deal with me and I know you're planning to steal my baby once she's born."

His mother looks beaten down and sits on his bed.

"Sweetheart, you know that I would love nothing more than for you to be happy and keep your baby. But you have no idea how hard it is to raise a kid! You are only 16 years old. And I'm sorry, but you're still a minor under my care.