It's Just You And Me

Chapter 20

Emotionless she somehow managed to return back home."Sana Putt tu thik hai aise muh kyu banaya hua hai?" her grandma instantly sensed the tention just by looking at her face. "Kuch ny dadi thak gai hu bohot, ap dawai kha kar soo jao ap kyu jage hue ho? mai bhi sone ja rahi hu.... ok" she smiled weakly getting inside her room. All the way battling with her heart and mind, he felt bad about that kiss, her mind said, but it was initiated both ways her heart snapped back. You need to shut this feelings, her mind said, but you need to accept the fact that maybe you do feel something for him more than just friend, her heart cajoled. Irritated with all the battles going inside her, she yelled inwardly stopping them both and took the decision that maybe she shouldn't have. Sidharth had no doubt become one of her closest in her life and the feeling of incompleteness was what she felt every single time he wasn't around, but even after everything she felt for him she let her mind win over her poor heart. "Maine galat kiya, mujhe aisa ny karna chahiye tha, usse bura laga isliye toh wo waha se aise he chala gaya mere se baat tak ny ke" she talked to herself sitting on the bed pouting sadly and as usual Coco made his place on her lap. "Coco meri ek galti ke chalte maine ek aur important insaan ko apni life se kho diya" her voice chocked at the end, why did she felt bad with his reaction when he walked out of the Cafe without a word? was she expecting him to say something? Why is her heart aching after listing to her mind and taking that practical decision of shutting down whatever she feels for him? She needs to talk to him now, she thought as she grabbed her phone from the side table and dialed his number and she needs to talk it out. Even after several rings and continues calls he didn't answer. Dejected she decided to personally meet him and clarify the things as she couldn't afford to lose this person from her life. She ended up crying to sleep with a heavy heart and Coco beside her.

Sidharth saw her calls but what was he supposed to do? pick it and get heartbroken with whatever explanation she was going to give? Naah that's probably the last thing he needs right now. He decided shoving away all his feelings in some corner and move on which was simply going to be impossible but he had no other choice, this feeling would not leave him easily. Maybe going to Dubai will keep him distracted from all his feelings and then later on he'll work on himself and try his best to not feel what he felt for her. Feeling crushed to his soul he manages to put up a poker face and walked into his house, he was welcomed by his mom waiting for him who soon was worried seeing his condition, "Beta tu thik hai? Oh God dekh kitne lagi hai, dard toh ny ho raha?" she kept on asking the same thing repeatedly as he replied in two simple words every time "I'm alright". Now who would explain to his mom that right now the stinging pain in his heart is 1000 times more painful than the one on his body. Mothers being mothers, she forced him to sit on the couch as he she went inside prepared some milk with turmeric and obligatorily made him drink it. The moment he used to close his eyes to sleep her smiling face would come right in front of him, that moment when they kissed and finally that face full of guilt of hers used to come in front of his eyes. It was getting hard for him to even sleep without thinking about her. He was restless the whole night, turning and twisting, he was wide awake even when it was 6 in the morning but was deeply lost in her thoughts. The birds chirping and the sun rays made him realize that it was morning and he did not sleep at all. "Mat ja na Bache, Tujhe chot lagi hai phir bhi zid pakad rakhi hai jaane ki" his mom admonished him from going for the Seminar but he was nowhere to listen, his mom too gave up in the end knowing how stubborn he could get at times. Half- heartedly she agreed and wished him a safe journey with the list of advices of hers to take care of himself.

Shehnaaz had set up her mind to go meet him first thing in the morning or else he'll leave for office and then she'll have to wait until evening. Doing exactly what she had thought about, she made her way to his house and was warmly invited in by Rita ji. "Sana beta kaise hai?" her face brightened up seeing Shehnaaz she rapturously hugged her. "Mai badhiya hu Aunty, par abhi pehle Sidharth se milna hai mujhe Sidharth kaha hai?" impatience lased in her voice. "Tu pareshan kyu lag rahi hai bacche? Kya hua hai? vo toh abhi kuch derr pehle he nikla Dubai ke liye" she informed gesturing her to come inside but she didn't move an inch, from where did this Dubai came into the picture, he had never informed her about this which was so not him because she knew nowadays she had become the first one to know about his where about, he would literally share everything first to her then why didn't he shared about him going to Dubai? She felt betrayed when she realized he didn't even texted her before leaving but then why was she feeling so as she was the one who ruined everything by being stupid, by not controlling herself last night. "Dubai kyu Aunty?" she questioned. "Beta ander toh aaja pehle, bahar he khadi hai" she dragged her inside and made her sit on the couch. "Aaj hum sath mei breakfast karte hai ok, tu ruk mai tere liye kuch bana kar aati hu" she was excitedly walking towards the kitchen when she was stopped by her. "Aunty vo kab tak aaye ga?" her eyes started getting damp. She had a very bad feeling about this, she got a very strong feeling about something going to go wrong in someway or the other. Rita ji immediately darted towards her, sitting beside, she caresses her cheeks and rubs her back "Kya hua hai bache? roona kyu aa raha hai? Sidharth ne kuch kiya?" her soft voice made her sob loudly. "Vo.... vo kab aaye ga? Usne mu... mujhe ku....kuch bataya bhi ny" her painful sobs confused Rita ji as to what had happened all of sudden, she hugged her rubbing her back as she continued crying in her arms. "Vo ek hafte mei aa jaye bache isme roona kya hai? chill karne ka aur ek hafta shanti se enjoy karne ka.... acha hai na tujhe shaam ko pareshan karne wala ny hai abhi koi" she laughed at her own pleasantry getting no response from Shehnaaz. "Kya hua hai beta chill kar.... Sidharth ne kuch bola?" she asked. "Nahi Aunty aisa ny hai vo aise he ladai hue thi aur vo bina bataye chala gaya toh mujhe hurt ho gaya" she lied wiping her tears, well half of it was a lie and the other half was true. She controlled her tears, she didn't wanted to worry her much and they ended up spending a good time together which helped her take her mind off of everything.

But Sidharth couldn't just take his mind off of the things that happened last night. All the way till Dubai the only thing going inside his head was 'Shehnaaz' and whenever he thought about their kiss it gave him butterflies inside his stomach same exactly like a teenager kissing his first girlfriend would feel. But then the next scene that came inside his mind which broke him, her words were breaking him moment by moment. Only God knows what destiny had decided for them.