Scarred For Life

Chapter 6

Danielle's Point of View

I furrow my eye brows at what he meant. He was looking me straight in the eyes, which was kind if of intimidating.

"W..what do you mean..?"

He walks towards me, our bodies quite close "do you remember the valentines dance in 5th grade, you had a white dress on and you spilt your drink all down the front leaving a stain..? You ran out the hall, to try and clean it up, I ran after you cleaning it up for you. Now you can barley notice there's a stain"

I nodded as he smirked at the memory.

"What are you saying?"

"I'm saying that, I want to clean up the past we had and start over, I know it'll take a while for you to forget but I want to let you know..." he stopped and picked up my hands holding them in his.

"Let me know what?"

He leans in putting his face closer to mine. I know what he's gonna do but I'm too much shock to react or say no. Before I know it he's kissing me. I couldn't stop him because, I was actually enjoying it.

"Wh-hey! " Someone shouts from the side making me and Calum pull apart.

"Check you two out!" Michael sniggers.

"Don't let us stop you" Luke winks.

I look at Calum who's face is bright red, mines is too probably.

"Emm, I need to go ... um ... yeah" I stutter getting up and leaving. This isn't right. I can't kiss Calum , I can't like Calum not after everything he's done.

Why did I not do something, why didn't I push away, why didn't I stop.

I get up to the room.

I've not really been calling it my room because this isn't my house and it's not permanent.

I got up to the room and sat on the bed. I like Calum, I like him a lot, it's just I can't date my bully , it's not right. He clearly likes me, but what if it's a joke and he's just doing it to wait for the right time and then he makes a move, like punches or kicks me or something.

But then he did stop me from killing myself.

But then why did he bully me all these years.

This is really confusing me, and it's hurting my head.

I lay on the bed and gently fall asleep.

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When I wake up I decide to talk to Calum about the kiss. I don't want things to get awkward between us, I mean it already sorta is but I just don't want any tension. I know how to fix it.

I knock on his door, but there is no reply. I gently open the door but he's not in there. I furrow my eyes brows and go downstairs.

Nobody's there either. I sit on the living room couch by myself. I don't like being alone. Even though I'm alone in my room most of the time but this isn't my house, and I don't like the thought of me being all alone in here.

"Calum...?" I call out weakly, but there's no reply.

I wrap my arms around my body pulling my knees up to my chest. I really don't like this. They haven't even left a note to say where they are, what if they've left me. I knew this would happen.

I put my head in my knees and started to cry. I knew this would happen, I knew it was too good to be true. It was all just a lie.

A couple minutes later I heard my name being called.

"Danielle? Why are you crying?"

I looked up to see Luke in a white shirt and black jeans. He came and sat next to me wrapping his longs arms around me in a hug.

"I thought you'd left me..." I cried.

He laughed "did you look for us?"

"I looked in Calum's room but he wasn't there.."

"That's cos we're all in my room, silly"

I felt so stupid "oh..."

"Come on" he laughed holding his hand out for me to take and lead me upstairs.

I love that we were all friendly towards each other even though it's still early stages. I still haven't forgotten the past , but I'm getting there though. Slowly but surely.

When we got to Luke's room Calum and Michael were on the floor playing guitar, and Ashton was behind a drum kit. Luke joined them on the floor.

"Are you okay?" Michael asks looking up at me.

"Yeah, thanks" I smile wiping away my tears "em Calum can I talk to you?"

He nods putting his bass on the stand and walking out the room following me down the corridor.

"It's about... you know, what happened earlier" I started.

"Yeah, I'm sorry about that, it was just a reaction and I --"

I don't know what I was doing but I kissed him. I could tell he was confused at first, but I felt him smile through the kiss meaning he liked it.

Even after everything that's happened, I think I like Calum. I think I like a lot.

He started to put his hand up my shirt but I pulled away and stopped him.

"Sorry..." he apologised.

"No it's just, I don't... I'm not ready yet"

"I didn't know sorry. I don't think this is a good idea" he sighed and walked off into his room.

I stood there for a while, before going in a after him. He was lying in his bed and looking up at the ceiling.

"Budge up" I told him. He moved over to the side and I lay next to him.

We sat there in silence for a bit.

"You've probably guessed now that I like you by the way" he said breaking the silence.

I turned my head to look at him "so do I " I whispered.

He gave me a shocked look.

"And I don't know why, but it's just this thing in my head that's telling me to forget what's happened and move on, but the thing is, I can't"

He sighed and nodded "I understand"

I curled up into his chest and enjoyed his company. I inhaled his scent and I felt his arm go around my shoulder. "this doesn't mean I'm gonna stop liking you though, because I still do"

He kissed my head, which was really sweet and I closed my eyes and fell asleep in Calum's arms.

Hallooo!

!!!!Double update!!!!!

So I know this book seems really depressing and crap... but I swear it gets better and there won't be any more self harm stuff and things like that in it.

Well not for a while anyway...

Without giving too much away, the book does get better! I promise!

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