Scarred For Life

Chapter 57

Calum's Point of View

After the others got back after spending ages in town doing fuck knows, we had our massive feast of pizza. After Danielle told me about Ashton I really wanted to get to the bottom of this before something bad happens.

We were all sitting around the living room watching movies on the TV, Luke and Michael falling asleep, I couldn't help but keep noticing Ashton look over at Miriam constantly with a really apologetic look on his face.

When Ashton feels like he's messed up or even has messed up or there's something on his mind that is really bugging him, he gets really stressed out and it really affects him and the rest of us boys. It was really starting to get to me already and Danielle was really pissed as well and she wasn't going to be un-pisses unless it gets sorted out.

"Right." I sighed getting up from the couch. "You two. You." I pointed at Danielle and Miriam before pointing at Ashton, raising my eyebrows at him. "Move." I gestured them upstairs into the practise room. I raced upstairs getting there first and waited for the rest to follow.

Danielle was the first one in and came and stood next to me, Miriam and Ashton following slowly behind standing opposite us.

"What's up?" Miriam asks looking at the three of us. Danielle looked up at me shrugging and looking back at the two.

"Ashton, if what Danielle told me was true..." I started as the awkward silence was just way too awkward. "You need to tell her. Now." I told him looking at him directly as he looked to the floor.

He took a deep breath looking at me then slowly to Miriam, who was confused as ever.

"I'm sorry, I can't be here..." Danielle whispered softly before walking after. Before she left she turned to Ashton. "I - I don't even know what to say to you. I can't even look at you the same. You're my best friend, your like the big brother I never had, Ashton I - " she bowed her head. "I can't even look at you anymore..." She whispered before walking away and closing the door gently.

I saw Ashton wipe away what I'm guessing was a tear at those words that came from Danielle's mouth. She was right. He was the oldest here, the big brother, he was the example and...

"Ashton..."

"Can someone explain to me what's going on please?" Miriam begged giving off an awkward laugh to ease the tension in the room.

"Just tell her before it gets worse." I told Ashton starting to make my way to the door. "I'm sorry, Miriam." I murmured before opened the door and letting myself out to give them some space.

Miriam's Point of View

I laughed awkwardly as Calum left. "Wh - what's this about?"

He rubbed his face with his huge hands to later reveal his face. His eyes were starting to tear up and go red and his hands started to shake. I've never seen him like this before... "Whilst we were on tour... Things happened, bad things.."

I think I knew where this was leading. I didn't know how to react to it though.

"I was drunk, one thing led to another and - basically I - " he exhaled deeply.

"No, no, no, no, please don't.." I shook my head turning away, my own eyes starting to water. I know we aren't dating just now but, but I just can't believe if what I think he's going to say happened.

"I had sex with another girl..." He finished off quietly.

I walked over to the window as a tear landed on my cheek. I could feel shivers run up my spine and goosebumps form all over my arm, I've never felt like this before. It feels terrible.

"Miriam, I'm sorry I didn't tell you before but - "

I whipped around and stopped him. "Don't. Don't you dare! I can't believe you...!" I started to walk to the door but he stopped in my path. "Get the fuck out my way, Ashton." I turned my head, wiping away the tear and crossing my arms.

"Can you let me speak?" He asked, I slowly lifted my head looking at him before looking down at the floor. Just then I broke down. I couldn't do this anymore I couldn't handle all this, being second fiddle to everyone, never making anyone happy, always being the 'odd' one. I'm always the one in the group not talking, or really awkward or I just don't fit it. When I was with Ashton he made me forget about all of that and that it didn't matter that I didn't fit in.

Guess it was all a lie...

"No... Move out of my way." I told him again.

"Mir - "

"OUT. Of my way!" I yelled more tears falling from the corners of my eyes but I quickly wiped them away and waited for him to move.

He didn't move so I just shoved him out the way, tears still streaming down my face as I opened the door. I started making my way down the corroded to get out of this , of this, ugh! But something stopped me.

"I love you..." I heard him quietly say at the door.

I stopped in my tracks, shocked at what I heard. What was I meant to do? Say it back?

No, we aren't together, he slept with another girl whilst we were still together!

I sniffled my back still turned. "I just need some space...some time, away from you." I sniffled again before walking downstairs waiting until he couldn't see me anymore and sat on the floor to cry.

Honestly, I love him too but, I just can't tell him because of this, I don't know how I feel anymore...