Scarred For Life

Chapter 41

Danielle's Point of View

After mine and April's fight, she went back to Calum's house as she was clearly very annoyed at me.

When she said that I would loose everyone that's ever cared for me, it hit me that...nobody really does.

My parents don't give two looks at me, all my "friends" don't really want to know me anymore and Calum... I don't know how he's feeling anymore. I don't even know how I'm feeling right now, I just feel all over the place right now.

I've had enough of all this. I don't wanna continue being here if no one even wants me here. Its just all happening again.

I'm gonna be left alone all by myself again and this time... Calum won't be there to save me.

I should of just left when I had the chance.

Getting off of April's bed for like the first time since I got here I went to grab my shoes by the door. Tying the laces I then made sure I remembered everything that I brought here shoving them in my bag.

As I started to think as to what I was going to do with my life I started to cry. Again.

No one was here to catch me as I fall, no one was here to tell me that this is all a huge dream and I would wake up from this nightmare.

No one was here to tell me that they loved me.

I was by myself again.

Once all my things were gathered up I left a note for April. It was pretty long to be honest.

I then left without saying goodbye to her mum and her grandparents, I left it in the note to say goodbye.

I then headed into the town.

I took a bus there and went into Starbucks. Something I've not had in a while.

Pushing the door open and feeling the warm air and fresh smell of baked goods hit me.

The shop was pretty packed which was not helping me at all because I really just needed some quiet time.

I went up to the counter ordering my drink, mango and passion fruit (a/n my favourite Starbucks drink 😉)

Once I had gotten my drink I went into the very corner of the shop and found a two seater there. I sat down on the hard chair next to wall placing my things down beside me before taking a sip of my drink. I noticed a phone charger there and just forgot about it because whoever left it there was likely to come back later on.

After a few sips I put my head in my hands and you'll never guess what I did again.

I cried.

I just really need to get it out my system.

I cried about Calum, I cried about April, Miriam, Kaelyn, the boys, my parents. I cried just because I couldn't do this anymore. I cried because I just wish that my life went right. I cried because I just want to be a normal teenage girl.

I cried because I just really want to be loved.

I started to sob rather loudly, but I didn't care about the people around because I've been waiting to do this for a long time.

"Excuse me I just..." I was interrupted by a voice in front of me. "Are.. are you okay?" The voice asked very softly.

I lifted my hair from my face and looked up to see who this person was. It was a boy, looked round about my age. His hair was a light brown colour and his eyes were a pretty hazel colour. He had a white shirt on which really showed off his arms. With tight skinny jeans on and white VANS he sat down I front of me.

"Sorry..." I apologised wiping away my tears.

"Are you okay...?" He asked again touching my arm gently.

I nodded looking away. "I'm fine..."

"You say one thing, but you're face says something else..."

I turned around to look at him before breaking down into tears again, burying my head in my hands.

I heard him gently sigh, but not in a pissed off way. It was in a way that showed that he cared. "Come on,lets get you out of here..."

He came round to my side taking my bag and putting it over his shoulder. He then gently took me by my shoulders leading me out of Starbucks and walked me to a bench that was nearby.

After I was done letting my waterfall flow, I ran a hand through my hair and looked out. "I'm really sorry..."

"It's okay. I couldn't exactly leave you there could I?" He softly laughed, as did I a little. "Now then, what's a girl like you doing crying in Starbucks then eh?" He had a really strong American accent which defiantly gave off he wasn't from here.

"To shorten it down, my life is.. a mess.." I exhaled.

"I'm sure it can't be that bad."

"Oh really... my parent abuse me for almost all my life, I also had a school bully bullying me for numerous years, I get depressed, me and my bully got together, we have a huge fight, I stay at one of so called friends houses which I then later find out I have no friends, everybody hates me just as much as I hate my life. Oh and on top of that I'm homeless. So yeah my life is not that bad!" I said all at once. I then looked at him to see that he seemed a little taken back by it . "I'm really, really sorry, I've just had a tough few days. I should probably go.." I got up taking my bag putting it over my shoulder about to leave when he took my arm.

"Where are you gonna go?" He asked me softly. Oh his accent. So cute.

I shrugged. "..I don't know, but, I'll find somewhere."

"Sit" he gestured for me to sit down, I did so placing my bag back down. "I'm John-James, John, James, JJ, whatever you prefer" he stuck his hand out for me to shake. I smiled kindly shaking it.

"Danielle"