Scarred For Life

Chapter 53

Danielle's Point of View

"Calum I - I just don't know what to do with my life anymore... I can't keep dragging you along in my mess..." I let go of his hands and hugged myself. Don't get me wrong that kiss was amazing and it helped me but, it was only temporary.

Every time I feel the need to harm Calum won't always be there and one day ... one day it'll be too late...

"It's okay Danielle. I don't care about how hard it is for you I'm always going to be there. I'm sorry for the way I made you feel, I can't say sorry enough times to tell you I'm sorry. Hell, I even get scared of myself sometimes,"

"That's not it, Calum..."

"Then what is it?! Danielle, I love you but half the time I can't keep up with you, stop giving me mixed signals!" He yelled, which got me scared.

I felt more tears threatening to spill. "You're doing it again..." I whispered.

"Doing what?!"

"You're scaring me!" I screamed. "I don't even recognise you anymore Calum. You aren't the Calum I knew when we were young or when we were fifteen!"

He stepped back from me and angrily ran a hand through his hair. "I'm sorry..."

"No! No you're aren't... You keep saying sorry but you aren't showing it." My face was probably looking and it was definitely feeling terrible. I thought he'd changed but since I was gone...I don't even know who he is anymore. "I can't love someone who is going to scare me like this anymore..."

I looked at him as he looked back at me. I started to walk towards the door again but he grabbed my waist and pushed me against the wall and started to kiss me again except this time it was more passionate like if he stopped I would just disappear.

"Calum..."

"I don't know how else to prove that I love you too much to let go..." He started to kiss down my neck but I pushed him off of me.

"Stop it! Just stop!" I yelled again. He stopped and took a step back. "This isn't what I want in a relationship Calum. I feel like you're pressuring me into something I don't want. I don't like this Calum, and I didn't like him when he was doing horrible things to other people." I breathed out heavily as he bowed his head. "I want lame joke, cuddly, squishy, caring Calum, I really just want him back..."

He seemed a bit taken back by this and I saw that it really did hit him. It made me want to cry at how he really wanted this relationship to work but, he's going to fast and I can't keep up with him.

"Well, I'm sorry I can't meet your standards..." He whispered. He rubbed the back of his neck before slowly backing up at then walking away. I felt like I had just lost a part of me as he left.

This relationship is crumbling away so quickly I feel like I'm crumbling with it. Calum, he helped me back up on my feet after my parents disowned me but I feel like he's also bringing me down.

I can't do this all on my own, and he's the only one who hasn't complained about it...

"Calum! Calum, wait!" I yelled after him tears still streaming down none stop. "Calum, stop!"

I stopped him just about to enter his room. He looked at me with red eyes and a wet face. He had such an upset look on his face I couldn't handle seeing him so upset.

"I know I can be a moany bitch who doesn't appreciate what she has, I know I don't take what I have for granted, and I know you have your moments too but all of these flaws we have is what keeps is together. This couple weeks we had apart... Believe it or not it was hard, okay? Not all relationships are flawless, there's no such thing. The amount of flaws and history we have together is what makes us special,"

I really wanted him to hug me and tell me everything was going to be okay, and that we've got nothing to worry about...

I give in way too easily but because we've been together so long ... I just can't imagine life without him.

"Just please, I don't like when we fight, I hate when we fight. I just - I just want someone to love me.." I looked down before breaking down. I couldn't hold my walls up anymore. Before I knew it I was crying hysterically.

"It's okay..." I heard him say to me and then I felt his muscular torso and strong arms wrap around me like I was in a cage, but a cage that was really safe. He stroked my hair something he hadn't done in a while and I could hear him softly crying too as he came up and hugged me tight. "I'm not gonna let you go again Danielle, no matter what... I promise... " he continued to calm me down as I continued to cry. "I love you, I love you so much..."

Miriam's Point of View

"You're what?!" I practically yelled before April put a hand over my mouth to quieten me down.

"Please be quiet, I haven't told Michael yet..." Kaelyn was shaking everywhere bless her.

She gathered us girls around minus Danielle, for some news. Now, because I hadn't seen her in a while I thought it was going to be typical girl gossip, but not that she was baking a bloody bun in the oven.

I removed April's hand from my mouth before saying: "How long?" 

She bowed her head and clasped her shaking hands together. She murmured something that I couldn't quite make out. I looked to April for help but she was as confused as I am. "I'm sorry, what...?"

"Two months..." I finally made out.

"Two months!" Me and April yelled in unison before covering our mouths to shut us up. We were in  the kitchen. Luke had previously left to go upstairs, Danielle and Calum were 'talking' and Michael and Ashton, I actually don't know where they are...

"I don't know what to do..." She panicked putting her head in her hands. I went over to her and hugged her, I felt so bad for her.

"Awk, it's gonna be fine don't worry..." I hugged her before April came and joined in feeling led out.

"I don't think I'm gonna be able to do this." She spoke.

She's so fragile I don't know how she's going to tell Michael. I just really hope he takes it well...

Heeey!

Quite a bad chapter but I hope you liked it. The book is ending soon,  I don't know how but it will end soon.

It's my birthday soon and I can't contain my excitement !! 😆

But school is starting soon too and I don't know if I'm happy or sad about because I've had a good summer but it went by too quick 😁

I also haven't bought anything for school yet and it's literally creeping up around the corner...

Anyway I'm gonna leave now before I start to rant. 😂

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Byieee!!

Rovane ❤️