Scarred For Life

Chapter 58

Danielle's Point of View

Calum and Michael have gone to the studio to work on some songs, since its been a while since the tour they've had some extra studio days. I stayed at home with April and Kaelyn. Luke has gone to have a nap, poor boy is sick so he's getting all the rest he can get. Ashton hasn't come down to talk to anyone and Miriam has also left, I don't know where she's gone or when she's coming back.

I really want to speak Ash, I hate seeing him upset and... Well he doesn't handle being upset to well.

"Danielle? Dani?" I heard someone call snapping me out my thoughts. I turned to where the voice was coming from.

"Sorry, I'm miles away... What?"

"We were saying, Kaelyn's scan. Do you think it's going to be a girl or boy?" April asked me.

I looked at her, then to Kaelyn who was rubbing her belly and smiling.

"Sorry I - I need to go speak to Ash." I excused myself from the room before racing upstairs outside Ashton's room. Standing outside the door I could only faintly hear sad, gloomy music playing in the background. I pursed my lips together before slowly walking in, to only be hit with the strong smell of alcohol.

It was really strong.

"Ash..." I sighed, closing the door and walking to him. He had a beer in his hand and about six other bottles on the table next to him. I took the bottle to try take it out of his hand, he gripped to it tightly as I did though making it hard for me to take it. "Ashton, give it to me. Drinking, isn't going to do anything."

"Yes... It does... It's helping my black heart in here." He slurred, patting his chest really hard with the other hand. I sighed going for the bottle again. This time he did let it go and put his head in his hands.

"You know -" I started but the music was making me depressed. I got up and lifted the needle off of the vinyl before sitting back down. "Listen. I hate you for what you did. Miriam is a really great person and yeah you probably have lost her, to be honest."

"Way to make me feel good, Dan." He muttered.

"Ashton, please. Just stop! Stop being like this, I hate seeing you this way. You set an example for people here, you're like my big brother I need you and I can't have you if you're going to be like this." I told him getting really annoyed.

"I can't just snap out of this Dani. I've just lost my girlfriend, when you and Calum weren't together I didn't tell you to 'stop it' . So please can you kindly just piss off!" He retorted back.

I stood up quite taken back. "Well whilst you're in this mood, I will!" I stormed off away from him and out the room slamming the door behind me. As I was about to walk off into my room, I stopped.

I shouldn't of said that or acted the way I did. Yes, he was a grade A dickhead, in fact dickhead is an understatement, but I can't just leave him. He gets this way when he's upset, and it affects everyone who's around him. I need to sort this out.

I sigh deeply before turning back around to his room. I lightly tap on the door before walking back in again. "Ash, I'm -" as I walk in I see him, his head in his hands completely broken. I could hear the heavy breaths he took as he sobbed and it - it made me feel broken too. "Ashton..." I sigh gently closing the door and sitting next to him.

I put an arm over him and rest my head on his shoulder to try and comfort him. "I'm really sorry, Ash. I shouldn't of acted like that."

He sniffles his head still down. "It's not your fault, it's mine. I had one good relationship and I messed it up."

"Please don't cry..." I quietly whispered. He told one deep breath and nodded before bursting into tears again.

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"How was the studio?" I asked Calum as he walked though into the kitchen, which I was currently sitting in by myself. I had heard him and Mike coming back in, Michael said a quick 'hi' before going upstairs. Calum came in pecking my cheek before going to the fridge.

"It was alright, got some lyrics and some beats, we're getting there." He told me taking out a bottle of water before chugging half of it down.

I nodded playing with the patterns on the table, my head resting in my other hand. He came over and stood across from me, his water still in his hand. "Ashton?"

I nodded again still looking at the table. "I just - I care about him too much because he's always been caring to me ever since we got together and, when all the stuff was happening with Liam and my parents, I just -" I paused not knowing what to say. "I just want him, them to be happy and I want all this arguing and bickering to stop."

He took my hand in his. "Listen, like I said before, it's nice to care for other people but it gets to the point where you have to leave them deal with their problems themselves. Ashton's a grown man. He knows what he's doing. I know Ash, yeah he has his moments but, you just need to leave him to have his own space until he's ready to talk to us. Okay?"

He has a point. I care too much. Sometimes I just need to step back and leave people deal with it them selves and when Ashton and Miriam are ready to talk they will. Speaking of which, where is Miriam...?

No, Danielle. When's she's ready she will talk...

"Okay." I smiled and nodded again. He leaned over and kissed my forehead. "Thank you."

"No problem. Anyway, movie night tonight, you gonna join us?" He asked me getting up.

I thought about it for a bit. "No thanks, I think I'll just have an early night."

"You sure?"

I nodded and bit my bottom lip.

"Right, I'm gonna go and shower. Can I get hug?" He came round and stretched his arms out waiting for me to accept his hug. I smiled widely cuddling into his chest, inhaling his familiar scent and feeling his muscular body. I looked up at his face as he looked down at mine and smiled with my eyes shut. I felt him come down resting his forehead on mine. "We can be such a mushy couple sometimes."

I heard him laugh. I laughed a little too. "I don't care. As long as we're a couple... It's all that matters." I whispered to him.