Scarred For Life

Chapter 61

Danielle's Point of View

I was sitting outside on the porch, with some hot chocolate. It was Christmas Eve and I was so excited for Christmas tomorrow. I can't wait to spend Christmas with all of my best friends and my boyfriend.

Christmas the past couple years was... Well it was tough. I love Christmas but with my family I didn't really get to enjoy it. When I was younger, when my parents had jobs, we had the best family Christmases. My dad would always sing all the Christmas songs at the top of his lungs and my mum would make the best Christmas cookies. Every night we'd sit by the fire drinking hot chocolate and watching Christmas movies.

As I got older I spent Christmas locked up in my room whilst they went out getting drunk, coming back angry and hungover. I wish we could go back to old times when we were a family. But if we were I wouldn't have met Calum and the guys. They're my family now, and I love them all to bits but, I just miss the old times sometimes.

"You okay?" I jumped at the voice behind me. I turned to see Calum walk out in his black onsie.

I nodded smiling. "Yeah, I'm fine." But I really wasn't. Thinking about my mum and dad really made me miss them. I know they have been really, really bad parents but, I do miss them.

"Sure?"

I looked down to my mug as he walked in front of me. I shook my head slowly. "Not really. I miss them... I miss them when they loved me. I miss all the silly games and stories we used to tell. I just... I miss being a family..." I told him looking down at my mug.

"Hey, it's okay." He put his warm hand in mine kneeling in front of me.

"I know I should hate them, but I can't help it." My voice started to go and I could feel my throat start to clog up. "Sorry. I keep going on about my problems." I sniffled laughing a little.

"It's okay. I miss my parents too, and my sister and my grandparents. You are aloud to miss them you know, and you are aloud to cry as well. It's normal. If you didn't, then I'd be worried." He laughed lightly. "I'll sometimes go off into the bathroom or the studio and cry myself sometimes, it's normal. And stop apologising!" He laughed again poking my cheek.

I laughed along with him sniffling.

"I just I wonder what it would have been like if they weren't so... So messed up.." I thought out loud. I really did think though. If my life would have been the same or if it would have been completely different.

"Yeah, me too..." He agreed.

After a little moments silent he got up. "The others have just started watching The Muppets. Coming?" He stuck his hands out so I could get up off the chair. I took one hand the other still holding the mug. I stood up shaking my legs before he wipes my face from the little tears that had fell.

We linked hands walking into the house to join the others and the movie.

"Finally! The movies just starting, hurry up and sit down." Luke rushed us to the couch.

The living room was decorated really nice. It was really cosy and Christmassy, I loved it.

"Right, we're coming!" Calum laughed going over to sit on the empty couch near the wall. He plopped down me sitting next to him. Matt started to make noises in his crib next to Kaelyn.