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Dedicated to... meeee!!!

~Zoe~

Motherhood.

Being a mother is not as rosy as everyone thinks. And it's even tougher when you are a 16 year old teenager reading and witting WAEC exam along side motherhood.  It ain't pretty trust me but you know what they say, when the going gets tough the tough gets going. That has  been the quote that has been helping me juggled motherhood, reading and exams all at once.

I can't take all the credit Though, with the help of Nafeesat and Joel I have been able to balances it properly. they have both been taking turns to look after Serenity for me even while she was in the Incubator. I couldn't be more grateful to have them on my side. Serenity on the other hand has been a handful, i means I named her Serenity which means peace. She was supposed to be peaceful not giving me  or my friend stress in any way  but this days she has been doing the direct opposite. Since when does your name work in the opposite direction.

It was currently middle of August and the raining season was over. The sun was back in it full force hotter than ever and because the heat is always too much for her to bear she would begin to cry so loudly. Most of the times when that happens I would stop whatever I am doing so I could give her a cold shower then breast feed her till she falls asleep. Then and only then will I have peace of mind , if I don't do that her cry  of displeasure will not let me rest.

Our Waec exams  started three weeks ago and since then they have been given us back to back, no  breathing space at all  and handling
Serenity in the middle of it all was not just  draining but very tasking. I would be lying if I said the stress wasn't killing  me,  but then again on the bright  side I Would rather deal with the stress Than wish this beautiful Bundle of joy away.

"Hmwhaaahhhhh ha whahhhhhhhh"

I was mimicking her crying patten hoping to make her stop crying , but instead she only cry some more, louder than ever self as she refused to take breast milk. Her face was flush red already and I was getting worried, why won't she stop crying. Did I do or say something to upset her, babies can be really sensitive at this early stage, and  she was just 3 weeks old.

" it's okay  now Serenity stop crying. Ehhh pls stop crying see breast milk nah Exclusive and undiluted, Fresh from the oven just for you. Ehh I know your are hungry so please stop crying and suck."

I said begging her while  putting  my now full and sumptuous Breast to her mouth  but she just won't suck.  At this point I was getting frustrated, the sooner I get her to suck on my breast the sooner I get her to sleep and the sooner that happens the sooner I can have time for myself. I have a biology exam to study for and it's tomorrow by 3 pm just because I am doing  my own WAEC exam from the comfort of my home  doesn't means I shouldn't study or get well prepared for it. In fact all the more reason I should be even more prepared.

"Evening is a-falling
So rest your weary head
Don't cry, little baby
Sleep tight in your bed
The Joaquin's are a-nestling
Way up in the trees
The scent of springtime flowers
Floating on the breeze"

Came the song from Joel's mouth. That voice combine with the song was enough to put a grown man out of his Misery and into a long sleep. Honestly where has Joel been all my live and how does he mange to show up when I need him the most. I smile at him as the song he sang didn't only make Serenity stops crying but it almost made her nibble and suck on my nipple sleepily. I had to rock her so she could keep her eyes open while she sucked on my nipple hungrily. All this while Joel's  eyes was on me and serenity as he sang the rest of the song