Where Do Broken Hearts Go?

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"Hey..."

While quietly sitting in my seat, Dillion approached me. He's absent yesterday and now, he's here. Probably because his head hurt that much.

I looked at him before nodding, accommodating his presence. His hair is messy and he's just fixing it with his finger. He smiled at me but as usual, I refused to smile back. Tumawa pa siya nang mahina nang makita ang hitsura kong bagot na bagot.

"Sorry... last day. I was drunk, inaalagaan mo pa ako," he said, avoiding my eyes. Nasabi niya naman na sa text ang sorry niya and I replied that it's fine. "Promise, I won't drink that much when I am with you."

"Hmm..." I nod. It's actually fine with me, and we're friends. That's what he said. We are. "How's your head? Are you sure you can attend class now?"

"Will I attend class if I can't?" I rolled my eyes at his sarcastic remark. He laughed again before tapping my head causing my forehead to crease. "Yeah. I'm fine now."

"Good. Here, I copied our lecture yesterday. Read that so you could catch up," I said as I gave him the paper where I wrote the significant notes.

"Wow! Hindi mo talaga ako kinalumatan. Thanks."

Thanks amputa. Mamaya ka sa 'kin.

I nodded my head. Inisip ko kung anong pwedeng ipagawa sa kaniya dahil ginawan ko siya ng notes. Sa huli, wala rin akong naisip. Sige, tama na sigurong may utang na loob siya sa akin. After all, he never told me to keep notes for him. I just did it because... why not? Why did I do that in the first place?

He started reading the notes I gave him. I was just here, looking at him while he was frowning, tapping his fingers on the table. While staring at him, I noticed even the simplest detail of his face. To be honest, his face is what everybody wishes they have.

Unconsciously, I mimicked all his expression. I frown when he's frowning, I smile when he's smiling. Kahit hindi niya gusto ang ginagawa niya, nakikita kong unti-unti, natatanggap niya na.

But I also wish that someday, he can be brave enough to pursue what he wants in life. Like what the famous line states, nasa huli ang pagsisisi. Sana, wala siyang pagsisihan sa lahat ng desisyon niya.

Everybody can be brave, truthfully speaking, but what makes us weak is the aftermath of our actions. That because we opt to be courageous, we will lose someone. Someone so important to us.

I regained my senses when he snapped. Nakatagilid ang ulo niya habang nakatingin sa 'kin, weirded by my actions. Right. Nakatingin lang naman ako sa kaniya the entire time.

"Are you okay?" he asked, laughing a bit. "Anyway, here. I am done with that. Thanks."

"That's yours, I have mine." His mouth formed into 'o' because of what I said. I shook my head when I saw amusement in his eyes. "Ililibre mo 'ko ng snacks."

"What? Hell!" I chuckled but I didn't answer him. "No fucking hell."

"Bahala ka." I shrugged.

Mukhang sineryoso niya ang sinabi ko. Pati kaibigan ko, ibinili niya rin. Tuwang-tuwa naman ang dalawa habang pinaghahatian ang pagkain ko.

I put my chin on my fist as I stared at them, watching how they consumed the food that was for me. I heard a chuckle from somewhere and I saw Dillion laughing at me. I frowned at him which made him stop. He cleared his throat and tried his best to show that he was serious.

"Ubos na ba?" I asked in a vapid tone.

"Hmm, hindi pa naman. Gusto mo ba?" I don't know if Kyla is teasing me with her remarks but never mind.

"Nah. Inyo na 'yan, mukhang para sa inyo e," I said full of sarcasm.

"I-I'll buy you a new one, don't worry." Before I could even decline his offer, he immediately stood up and went to the counter.

Umiling na lang ako at iniwasan ang issue sa mata ng dalawa kong kaibigan. Malamang ay nagtataka ang dalawang 'to sa inaakto no'ng si Dillion. Tinitigan ko na lang ang lamesa habang hinihintay siyang bumalik.

Bakit ko nga ba siya hinihintay kung pwede naman ako ang kumuha?

However, before I could even stand, he came back with a styrofoam in his hand. He handed it to me and I accepted it. Wala naman akong magagawa at sayang ang pera niya.

"May spaghetti pala r'on? Ang duga ng tindera na 'yon, ah. May favoritism! Humanda sa 'kin 'yan." Carleen stopped Kyla when she attempted to attack the vendor.

"Ah, yeah. I asked her if they had pasta and she gave me that. Nalaman ko kasing paborito ni Callan ang pasta, so... there." I don't know why my heartbeat raced when he mentioned my name. That made me frown. I look at him and he's looking at me too, eyes are serious.

"Favorite ko rin ng spaghetti, hehe." I looked at Kyla who was looking also at my food. Nakurot tuloy siya ni Carleen. "Char! Sige, Cal, ubusin mo na 'yan."

"Uh, mauna na kami, Cal. Kyla, tara na. May gagawin ka pang presentation 'di ba? Oo ka na lang."

"Huh? Sabay na tayong apat," I suggested.

"Hindi na! Wala naman kayong gagawin sa classroom, dito na lang kayo! Bye-bye na!"

I sighed when they actually leave me here with Dillion. Silence enveloped our table. I just started to eat the food he bought for me. Nakatingin lang siya sa 'kin habang kumakain ako kaya hindi ko maiwasang ma-conscious.

"Kain ka lang." Naramdaman niya siguro ang pagkailang ko kaya umiwas siya ng tingin. Umiling na lang ako saka pinagpatuloy ang pagkain ko.

"Siya nga pala, may groupings mamaya. Sinabi 'yon kahapon kaso absent ka. Do you want to join our group instead?" I glanced at him.

"Ah..." He looked at me before his eyes darted on my lips. It fixed there and I saw how he licked his lips before gulping which made his Adam's apple move.

"Hey, I'm asking. Do you want to join our group instead?" I asked with a hint of annoyance. He glances at me for a second before glancing back at my lips.

"Hmm, sure," he said as he leaned closer. I moved my head backward with my brows furrowed. "Your lips..."

"Oh? What's with my lips?" I asked, trying my best not to stare back at him. But his eyes are attracting me.

"Magagalit ka ba kapag..." Lumapit pa siya lalo habang tinuturo ang labi ko. Umangat pa sandali ang tingin niya sa 'kin. "Hinalikan ko 'yan?"

For a moment, I froze. Something rekindled within me. An emotion I couldn't name.

"Ano? Sira ba ulo mo?" tanong ko at tinulak siya para umayos. Tumawa naman siya. Wala namang nakakatawa! I threw daggers of glares at him.

"Joke lang," he said as he got some tissue. "Harap ka sa 'kin." I saw how a smile formed on his lips when I followed him. He holds my chin before wiping my lips. "May dumi."

"You could've just told me," I said.

"Ayoko nga. Mas okay na 'yon. Plus points." He winked at me, earning a disgusted look. He chuckled at my reaction. "Ang tagal mo namang mahulog..." he mumbled.

"Ulol."

I am not naive when it comes to this topic. About falling in love. All the signs that they say when people are in love, I feel all those whenever he's near. Even though I denied it many times, I can't escape from the truth that little by little, he's already taking space in my heart.

And when my heartbeat doubles its pace whenever he's around, I know I am doomed.

A/N:

Ilang araw din akong walang update, kasalanan niyo 'to. Chos.