Where Do Broken Hearts Go?

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"Dillion..."

I never see myself being desperate with someone. I never see myself chasing someone. All my life, I used not to care who will leave me. But now, I am in front of Dillion. I wanted to talk to him.

"What are you doing here?" He looked at me emotionlessly. It pained me to see that the eyes I once admired is looking at me as if I am someone he regrets knowing. "I told you I don't----,"

"Please. Kahit...kahit ilang minuto lang." I looked down and shut my eyes tightly.

"I still have more important things to do, so if you wouldn't mind, can I have my way?" I pursed lips as I sighed.

"Hmm..." I smiled a little, giving him space. I heaved a deep sigh again before looking up.

It's okay, Callan, you still have time. You can talk to him anytime.

"Wow, so aga para sa susunod na subject. Saan nanggaling ang aming Callan?" Hindi ko pinansin si Kyla nang salubungin niya ako.

"First time mong hindi um-attend sa klase, Callan, ah. Anong ganap?" I remained quiet when Carleen asked me. "Hinahanap ka ni prof kanina. Puntahan mo na lang sa office niya."

"Thanks." The only thing that come from my mouth. She sighed and tapped my shoulder before gesturing Kyla to leave me.

Two days after he broke up with me. Up until now, I still don't know the reason why. As much as I want to ask him, he didn't give me a chance to. He seems fine without me, though. I often saw him laughing with his friends as if I am just nothing to him.

Ilang taon 'yun tapos sisirain niya lang? For what?

"Good afternoon, sir."

Late afternoon, like what Carleen told me, I pay a visit to my professor. He looked at me, then he nods, gesturing me to sit on the chair in front of him.

"Are you okay, son?" He asked me. I didn't answer. I don't have answer. I don't know if I am okay, but I am still alive so I guess I'm okay.

I heard him sighed. "I'll be frank, I am not satisfied with your outputs and performance anymore." I looked down because of what he said. "I don't know what's happening to you but your outputs these past days seems so senseless."

"I'm sorry, sir." I have nothing to say but sorry.

"That's okay. Please be reminded that I told you this because I want you to know that I am here whenever you wanted someone to talk to. I'll consider these since you're one of my students who really excels in class." I smiled at him. "Hindi ko alam kung magiging considerate din ang ibang guro mo sa'yo kaya mas mabuti sana kung pagbutihin mo na. You're graduating this year, Mr. Addison. Sayang."

Walang ibang laman ang isip ko kundi 'yun lang. Hanggang sa pag-uwi ko sa unit, 'yun pa din ang laman ng isip ko. Aaminin kong medyo hindi ko na napagtutuunan ng pansin ang pag-aaral ko pero mababawi ko din naman 'yun.

"D-Dillion..."

I was startled when I saw him inside. Mukhang nagulat din siya nang makita ako pero kaagad ding nakabawi. Finally, he went home.

I was about to welcome him when I saw him pulling his luggages. I stepped back. I looked at him, waiting for explanation but he, again, looked away.

"Aalis ka." The way I said it was not asking. Aalis siya.

"Uuwi na ako. I mean, I see no reason to stay here at all," he sarcastically smirk before roaming his eyes around. "With you."

"P-Pero sa'yo 'tong unit." I gulped the lump on my throat.