Where Do Broken Hearts Go?

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"Anong nangyari?"

I don't know what's with me but I ended up here at the bar. I mean, we ended up here. Hindi naman na kami minor so there's no issue but I don't usually go to this kind of place. Beer nga lang ang na-order ko habang ang kasama ko naman, nag-Black Label pa.

He's just silently drinking his drinks. He didn't even let me know what happened. He's just there, treating me like a ghost. Kanina ko pa nga dapat ito iniwan pero nakaka-konsensiya naman.

He looked at me before letting out a low chuckle. Mukhang may tama na siya ng alak dahil malamlam na ang mata nito. Even though I couldn't clearly see his face, I knew that his cheeks were now red.

"Callan..." I stiffened in my seat when he called me by my name. He chuckled again before drinking. "Am I not good enough?"

"What? You're drunk," I said and tried to take away his drinks but he won't let me.

"My family... they always say that I should be good..." Suminok pa siya. "Am I not good enough?"

"No. You're good enough so better stop drinking this." I got the bottle and thankfully, he let me. "And we're going now."

"You asked me what happened. Now that I am telling you what happened, you're not listening." He grimaced.

I sighed. "Fine. What happened?"

"My cousin topped his class..." he started. "I don't know if I should be glad for him or I should envy him. My family... they're so proud of him. I witnessed how wide their smiles were, which I never see whenever I achieved something." Napalunok ako nang tumitig siya sa akin. "They... they even told me that I should be as good as my cousin." He started sobbing again.

It really sucks. Lalo na kapag pamilya mo ang nagkumpara sa 'yo sa iba. It will make you feel that all your efforts are not enough. That everything you've done wasn't enough. That you, your self wasn't enough.

That's why I told myself that I am good enough. That I don't need to impress them for me to feel that I am the best. I always keep in mind that I am the best. The best way for you to increase your confidence is to let yourself feel that you are the best.

"Noong una naman, wala lang sa 'kin ang mga gan'on. I often laugh at it, to be honest. But now, I can feel that I will never be enough for my parents." He sobbed. Para siyang batang umiiyak sa harap ko. Maybe, his family really affects him that much. "They always say that I should be that, I should be this," he continued.

"I don't know how to comfort you but if there's something I should say,  you're enough. That you, yourself is enough. You just have to believe in that," I said as I poured my drinks into my glass. Napa-Black Label din tuloy ako dahil sa kagagawan niya.

"How can I believe that I am great if in the first place, my family don't. Nobody sees my worth." His voice is almost half-asleep. I checked him. Nakahilig ang batok niya sa sandalan, nakatingin sa taas habang nakapikit ang mata.

I sighed and stood up but I ended up sitting down again when my head hurt. Kaya ayokong uminom e. My tolerance isn't as high as others. Beer lang ang ininom ko na 'to.

"Dillion." I tried calling him but the prick was sleeping deeply. I tsk-ed and managed to stand. "Dillion, wake up. We're... we're going now."

Kapag naaksidente tayo sa daan, putangina talaga.

Hindi ko rin pala alam kung saan ang address niya. Aish! Why did heaven sent me such headache? Ayoko namang i-asa sa drivers si Dillion.

Inakay ko siya. Ang bigat niya, parang ewan lang. Magpapakasira na lang ng buhay, sinama pa ako. Ako naman 'tong tanga na hindi alam kung bakit ako sumama sa gagong 'to.