TRIPPED ON YOU

CHAPTER THREE: HANGING ON

Thernicy's Pov

The waves crashed against the rocks with so much force, you'd think the rocks might finally give in but nature always has its own way of surprising you.

The sun was slowly setting and looked as though it was drowning on the horizon.

The hues of pink shades and yellow coated the magnificent skyline. Being on the cliff a couple of miles away from the house, made its beautiful peach walls look pink as the sun set. I never for once thought I'd have the courage to confess my emotions for Christopher, let alone yell them out for the whole world to hear. And regardless of the Star issue, I somehow still had the strength to blurt it all out.

Can't argue with the fact that I talk a lot. And usually vent out in crowds but this was so not what I imagined it would be like. Now that it happened, I was so confused about how I'd face him again. But mostly I was very disappointed in his trust for me. After his reaction I realized he might not even have the guts to love me entirely. Let alone accept me.

'Wait? Why am I worried about anything? I don't owe him nothing!

He's my friend and if he wants me just as much as I do him then we'll see how it goes, if not well then great!' I thought. But My thoughtful self didn't even sound as convincing as the words she said should.

A message alert distracted me from my never ending turmoil.

got you some ointment for your breaking heart! *Norah

'it better be potato chips or you can just shove whatever it is up your...' I typed back

Recalling how everyone walked in on us but hid in order to ease drop. How childish and unsupportive of them to let me make complete fool of my already foolish self.

Thankfully Norah realized how jealous she got when she also heard Terry was a very welcome suitor.

It was fun watching her try to force me to admit to never agreeing to being with him if ever Christopher and I didn't work out moments before I came to the cliff the first time that afternoon.

And to think the sunset view on the beach was amazing...
At this height and with this much force from the waves, this was the most beautiful sight on this entire state, I swear.

It was already two days now and I avoided everyone except my shadow, that fool is stuck with me. And two long days since I last saw him.

Speaking of the devil, he's been hiding away just like I have.

Wonder why?

a very chocolatey and caramel-filled cake is going down my ... Per your orders *Norah replied.

'Oh my God! I loooooove cake... But I don't wanna have it in this low mood...

What to do? Huh!

I'm officially not feeling anymore shame, fear and embarrassment until after I enjoy that piece of cake!' I resolved.

With that I ran back into the house, thinking no one was around but as I got into the plain white hallway, my pace slowed as I thought about him again.

I hope he's okay.
I mean other than his obsession with my cousin him and I have no problem.
I don't mind having a crush on him while he's with someone else as long as it's with someone that's values him just as he does them...

"Tennis! I could really use some extra help here." Terry yelled out to me.

"What do you want!", I responded in a very uninterested tone. After not having spared Terry's room a glance as I walked passed it.

'Wait why was he door open?' I walked back a few steps to peak in Terry's room, thinking about so many possibilities but not expecting to find a bleeding Christopher in his hold.

"What the hell?" I quickly rushed over to see exactly where all the blood was coming from.

We moved him to the bed and I immediately ran out to the bathroom everyone on the second floor shared right down the hall.

Fear and worry enveloped me and nothing ever felt more intense than my need to care for him. Cause truth be told he and I were still friends. Even after everything I'd been through I was ready to face the music because of a simple nose bleed. Who would have imagined?

It was an hour after the nose bleed incident, to say I was ecstatic to learn that he was drunk way over his head to be able to recall anything from the past two days would be an understatement.

He had passed out and Terry helped tidy the place before the crew was back.

"Why is it so hard?" Terry turns his head towards Christopher and I can't help but blush as I think back to all the times I'd try but fail profusely and end up imagining other ways of how 'better the conversation would have gone'.

Except the one where I actually did confess.

"Why does everyone keep asking that?" I blurt aloud after the question registers in my head.

"Maybe, because we actually want to know? Have you ever thought of that possibility?" retorted a sarcastic Terry.

"Anyways I mean, why is it so hard to just walk away, like after avoiding him for days but you come running whenever he needs you? You know you remind me of juliet when she was hooked on Romeo!" He spoke with so much intensity, during the first few lines well until the comparison came and his seriousness was replaced by a smug look.

Probably mocking my dear weak senses.

"I guess needs always override wants. And in this case mine are not as important as his. Which sounds stupid now that I think about it!" I confessed and realized just how selflessness can result in self neglect. I was becoming stupid and reckless for another being who didn't even spare me a second glance, well in the sexual sense I mean.

I never really thought I'd give up on myself so easily just because someone else didn't want to see me for me.

"But you know what? I'm not gonna let this break me, it's just a crush and We're friends, we'll definitely face this. I hope" With those words I stood up and went downstairs.

Everyone was back by 7pm which was enough time for them to bug the hell out of me till 10pm.

Right into the hour I was so gone into my cake I didn't see myself dose off on the couch next to Trixie the teddy buddy Norah brought downstairs from my room. We'd come here a couple of times but never stayed longer and every last night here, each time I'd forget a bear for memories and to have a reason to visit again.

Yes, I still have dozens of teddy bears. Can't help it when people get you Valentine's gifts every year without asking me what I would actually like to have other than teddies, chocolate and flowers and all the one-week shit of endless gifting.

I hate certain holidays.

But that's doesn't mean I don't like being pampered on particular ones like Christmas. Anyway I decided, in my dreams though, that I'll work on myself more and not let a simple rejection if any tear me down. No Pain Or anger can lead you to peace nor give you rest so I guess I eat my way to peace and rest and it works better each time.