Mine Forever

Chapter 40

I woke up to crying and I hurried to get up. I picked up Chase and tried to calm him down. I grabbed a bottle from the refrigerator and fed him.

After getting them both back to sleep I pulled their play chairs into the bathroom, so I could take a shower. I turned the water on and set it for quiet so they wouldn't wake up.

I undressed and got in. I hadn't felt so relaxed. I hurried and got out. I put my robe on dragged their chairs out the door. I felt hands wrap around me and I tensed.

"Myra, you've been avoiding me." He said. I let go of Chase and Madison's chairs and raised up. I closed my eyes because I knew what was about to happen. "You can't hide from me." He said tightening his grip. I winced because my stomach was still trying to heal.

"Please stop squeezing me." I said. I tried moving his arms, but he kept squeezing tighter.

"Not until you give me what I want." He said.

"What are you talking about?"

"I want you to have my kids. Get rid of those and then have mine." He said. I opened my eyes and cried. I hit his arm and he loosened.

"No." I said. He let go and pushed me. I backed away from him. He moved closer to me and hit me. I tried to ignore it and block his next few hits. I heard a knock on the door and he got even angrier. I stood and walked to the door. He followed after me and I answered it.

"Hey I got some stuff." Alex said looking up at me. He dropped everything and pulled me towards him. I stopped him and felt arms wrap around me.

"Alex just go." I said. He grabbed my hands and Abel squeezed me tighter.

"I would listen to her." He said. I struggled to get loose. He squeezed tighter.

"Let her go." Alex said. I heard crying and I wanted to get to Madison. Abel released me and went into my room. I ran after him and got in front of him when he reached for Madison.

"No you will not touch my child." I said. He backed up and hit me again.

"Stop!" Alex yelled. "Don't touch my child" I looked at him with sad eyes. Abel turned and attacked Alex. I got Alex off him and cried. Alex held onto me as Madison screamed. Abel hit me again and tugged on me.

"Leave." I said talking to Abel. He looked at me and then at Alex. He walked out and slammed the door waking up Chase.

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"Are you okay?" Alex asked.

"I don't know." I said. I looked at myself in the mirror. I had a few scars on my cheeks. I looked down into the sink and saw blood. Alex pulled me to him and I moved away.

"You don't have to be afraid." He said. I walked out of the room and he followed.

"I'm scared." I said and completely broke down in his arms. "I'm scared he's going to come back and do something to Chase or Madison."

"I know, but he's not." He said. We walked into the living room. He sat us on the couch and I looked at my hands.

"How can you be so sure? I asked.

"Because I'm going to protect you and them. Nothing is going to happen to you or them. "I looked up at him. It's hard for me to accept Alex back into my life. He hurt me and I forgave him so many times, but I was still thinking about it.

"Myra. I know you still think about it." It was like he was reading my mind. "And I want you to know I'm sorry. I hurt you more than once, but this time there's no more hurting. I love you and I don't want to hurt you anymore. I should have realized this before when you know." I was full on crying now.

"I know you didn't do it on purpose or want to."

"I didn't, but since the twins were born I feel different. Like we're parents now and I don't want our kids to grow and see us not together. You know it's just how I feel and I know you might not be ready for all that right now and it's completely understandable. I just want you to know I'm here for you and I want to be the last person you see at night before you close your eyes. I want you to be comfortable and not have to go through anything." He said.

"I- I want to honestly, but how can I say I love you when I can't even love myself?" I closed my eyes. I was expecting the worst.

"You do love yourself. You get up everyday and look at our kids. They look exactly like you. You love them. I know you do. I don't want to rush you." He said. I nodded.

"Alex, I do love you. You mean the world to me but you hurt me and I do forgive you. I do, but I don't know what i want."

"Well you think about it and let me know okay." He said sighing. He wanted to stand up, but I didn't let him.

"Your not leaving." I said smiling. He looked at me confused. I sat on his lap straddling him. He smiled a little and held my hands.

"You don't want this." He said jokingly. I thought for a minute and I kissed him. I didn't care anymore. He loved me and I loved him. I shouldn't keep my guard up anymore. He wouldn't stop until he got me back.

"I love you Alex." He smile widened I kissed him again, but longer. The twins started crying and he smiled against my lips.

"I love you more." He said. I was about to stand up when he pulled me back down. "I got this one." He said standing. He left and I got a little sad. He came back with Chase and Madison in his arms.

"Give me Chase." I said. He handed me Chase and I smiled at him. "Hey baby, I missed you. Maybe you can stay up with daddy tonight and let mommy go to sleep." I said. Chase smiled at me and reached for my face. I closed my eyes and felt him grabbing me.

"You know he likes basketball more than football right." Alex said. I looked up at Alex feeding Madison.

"Maybe he'll like both." I said. He laughed a little.

"Yeah I don't care. He could love hockey."

"You do care, just don't be that dad that pressures his child into stuff. Let him ask." I said. "You know Madison's going to love boys."

"Yeah and I'm going to love keeping her away from them." He said sitting down next to me.

"Leave her alone." I said nudging him. I leaned my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes.