Mine Forever

Chapter 36

1 month and 2 weeks later

I'm finally 8 months pregnant. Everyday I think about how labor is going to feel. I overwhelm myself sometimes, but I calm down. I still haven't talked to Alex, but I feel relieved but I know he wouldn't want to talk anyways. I walked up to my office and saw someone sitting in the chair in front of my desk. I walked around to my desk and realized it was Alex.

"Um why are you here?" I asked. He looked up at me.

"I-we need to talk." He said. I sat my stuff down. I put my book down. I had recently started reading a few motherhood books so I could get a little more prepared.

"Listen im a little busy right now, but-"

"It's important." He said cutting me off. I sat in my chair and looked at him. I looked down the hall to see people doing their jobs.

"Okay go ahead." I said watching him.

"Well since we've broken up," he said uneasy. "I've been seeing someone else. I've been seeing her and a few days ago she told me..." he stopped and looked down at his lap.

"Told you what?"

"She's um pregnant." He said. I widened my eyes and say back a little. I didn't think I had a heart left to break again, but it hurt me.

"Well that's good. I guess. I don't understand why your here telling me though. I get that you probably wanted to share that news with me, but I don't-"

"I don't want to be with her."

"Alex she's pregnant with your child or children. I think you be there for her. " He shook his head.

"No I mean I don't want her. I only want you. I didn't mean for it to happen, I was angry with you and I'm sorry. I know you wouldn't do anything like that to hurt me, but I didn't know what to think." He said. I could see the guilt on his face, but it doesn't change what he did.

"Alex you didn't just hurt yourself, you hurt me too. I still can barely sleep at night because of what happens. Yeah it happened over 2 months ago, but I still think about it."

"I don't want that anymore. I want to be able to come home everyday and see you and sleep next to you again."

"I want that too, but it's too late for that. I really don't even want to be pregnant anymore. After hearing that I just can't. Why should I? I don't want to have your kids and then she's having them too. I wanted to be the first and only."

"You are the first. Myra I can't change it. You know that, but if I could I would. Don't say you don't want to be pregnant anymore. You mean the world to me and I want to see my kids. I just want to be a family."

"Well a family can trust each other and obviously you can't trust me. I do forgive you for what happened, but I can't be with you when you have another girl pregnant. I'm tired of going through it with you. I'm tired of crying and sleepless nights. I can't focus on what I have to do for my kids because of you."

"You have every right to be mad. I know your hurting, but please just don't take them away from me. I talked to my mom and she wants to see them when they're born. I do want you to be happy, and I will makeup for the lost time."

"Alex please don't. I don't need this right now. I have to start working. I need you to just leave me alone. If anything happens with them."

"Myra please don't." His voice cracked.

"Just go!" I said. I turned around and looked out the window. I heard the door close and I turned around.

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Hours later