Mine Forever

Chapter 20

I thought about seeing my mom all week. When Saturday came I was still nervous about it. Alex drove to the place. I played with my hands the whole time. He grabbed my hand and held it tight.

"Calm down." He said squeezing my hand. I relaxed a little. I sighed really loud.

"I'm trying but I don't know if I can do it."

"You can." He pulled into a parking space at the hospital and we got out. " I'm right here for you."

We walked in and went to the desk. The lady stared at Alex. "Uh she's in-uh."

"Can you stop staring at him and tell me the number." I said she brought her attention to me and frowned. She handed me a piece of paper with a number. I grabbed Alex's hand and we walked to the room. I stopped at the door and looked in the window. She was sitting in a chair by the window.

I lowered my head. Alex picked it back up and held onto my face. "Don't put your head down. It's not your fault."

I opened the door slowly and watched as she turned around slowly. She sat still in the chair. I noticed that she was strapped down. Alex got a chair for me to sit in.

"How-how are you?" She asked. I could hear the stutter as she spoke.

"I'm fine but what happened?" She looked away from me.

"I didn't think you would leave. I wanted you to stay. I'm sorry." I stopped her.

"I don't want an apology. It's too late for that,"

"I've missed you so much. I didn't think you would really come." She looked back at me.

"Well i guess. But get better." I stood up

"No please don't leave."

"Why? You don't want me in your house, so why should I stay here"

"Because I need you. I need you and your father. I'm not doing good. I can't lose both of my kids."

"You lost me a long time ago. I can't deal with this. You kick me out and when you need help you expect me to help you. No that's not how it works your supposed to be here for me when I need you, but you were too selfish to that for me." She was silent. "My kids will know you, but if they never come around you, you know why. How can I trust you after you hurt me so much?"

"I'm begging you to please just help me. I don't need much. I just want to get better." She said. She looked over at Alex. I opened my mouth to speak but Alex was already talking.

"What do you need?" He asked. I folded my arms and looked at him.

"I need to get out of here." I shook my head

"You can't leave until they know your better." She nodded

"I am now. I just wanted to talk to you. I can get better while I'm at home."

"I don't see how I can help you."

"Come see me often."

"No you want me to do something for you but you couldn't do anything for me."

"I know that's why when I get better you can come back."

"No I'm not coming back to live with you. I want my kids to be in their own house. We can't help you." Alex put his hands on my shoulders.

"You can. Please I can't stay here I need to work."

"Well tell your friends to get you out."

"Whatever Myra. Your my daughter and I don't care if you don't ever see me again. I don't need you."