I went to dinner slightly downhearted. Snape's expression and tone pierced through my heart killing the mood. My whole body felt empty, I felt sick just looking down at my plate of food. My bed sounds so comforting right now, I just know the moment my head bashes against my pillow I'll be knocked out.
I could feel everyone's eyes glued on the fresh marks and I just smiled. They all wish they could pull someone as hot as me. I jumped realizing people were starting to leave the table. I quietly groaned remembering I have detention and slowly dragged my body throughout the school till I was drowsy staring at Lupin's classroom door. I raised my hand slightly to knock but it slowly swung open causing me to leap back.
"Oh I'm so sorry Ms Celeste, I just got worried since you are fifteen minutes late." I looked at him confused then peaked at the nearest clock, I thought I was gonna be early.
"I must've lost track of time...sorry Professor." I kept my head down not wanting to make any eye contact, he'd know something was wrong.
"No need to apologize, just come in and sit by my desk." I took one step in and the cold breeze overwhelmed me. I shivered all the way to my seat, it's only september why is it so fucking cold? "Sorry I believe a student casted some sort of chill spell. The fireplace won't work because of it." I continued to shiver and my finger tips began to go numb. Lupin sat down and his eyes widened as he reached over, holding my hands. "You really don't do well with the cold, you're turning blue...here." He lifted my hands to his mouth and gently blew on them, his soothing warm breath felt like paradise against my frosted hands. I looked up at him wide eyed and very flustered.
"T-Thank you." He lowered his arm, setting my hands onto the desk, still keeping a grasp on them.
"I understand your fight with Wood must've hurt you. He had no right to grab a young lady and refuse to release her." Lupin was looking directly into my eyes as I looked into his, they are just so comforting. Before I knew it his lips were gently pressed against my hand as he lifted it up. "You deserve better, someone who respects you, someone mature." I took a deep breath and nodded slightly leaning in trying to go unnoticed.
"I know I do, Oliver also knows he's just a friend so I don't know why he hasn't given up yet."
Lupin then slowly started to lean in, I could now see small scars on his face I hadn't noticed before, "Well, love makes you do some wild things. Wouldn't you say so?" I froze just inches from kissing him, my lips slightly puckered. My heart's thundering beating went silent, what...
He moved a piece of hair out of my face before leaning back in his seat with a smirk plastered on his face, "I knew it, Mr. Wood would never disobey a Professor so you must have a crush on me." He stood up and slowly glided over to the window. "You are such a brilliant student and I will tear myself apart if I cause any failure because you are being blinded by love."
"Professor love can not blind me, I'm not stupid." He fiercely turned around causing all air to escape my lungs.
"It's blinding you right now. I am your professor, there is no use for you to try to love me." My brain shut itself off again and I quickly sprinted over to him and cupped his face in my frozen hands.
"I don't care! My heart fluttered when I first saw you on the train. You are absolutely perfect. You're sweet, smart and adorable. Please just let me love you." I went to at the least hug him but he violently pushed me away causing me to fall onto my ass.
"No, it isn't right. I also don't love you back and I never will since...someone else sadly has kept hold of my heart." I got up swiping at my clothing in a rage not because of my heart shattering into a million pieces but because he had no reason to push me. Also why is he speaking as if he's in some romance novel, he's bad at acting. "May I ask who left those hickies on your neck? It must be someone you're ashamed of considering you wouldn't tell your best friend."
"It really is none of your business and I haven't told my friends because it was a one time thing I refuse to do again."
"Then why do you have fresh marks that weren't there this morning?"
This is torture I turned on my heal and began to storm out, "I can't believe I'm saying this but detention with Snape is a lot better than this!" I slammed the door shut and continued to walk down the halls, I can feel the steam pouring out of my ears.
"Y/n you oka- More marks? Seriously, you crawled back to Lupin..." Oliver stopped right in front of me and he wasn't angry anymore, is this worry?
"Ollie, Lupin never gave me any marks! Someone else did and also Lupin can go suck a dick! He didn't gently let me down but instead threw me into the pits of hell!"
I just want to pass him so I can finally drop onto my bed but he stayed in my way.
"I'm sorry that happened...I'm also sorry for earlier. You deserve better than me so I should've known I stood no chance."
"What? Ollie you deserve better than me. I have been very rude recently and secretive which no friend should do. We can talk more in the morning...I need to sleep."
"Ok." He smiled and it warmed my shattered heart, giving it a feeling for a second. The fiery anger that was boiling inside me vanished as I walked down the steps to the dungeon. I now just feel gloomy and my legs were starting to feel like mush as I entered my common room, collapsing onto my bed, sobbing my entire soul out of my eyes.
(A/N: I know this one is short but it would've been twice as long if I didn't cut it off here)
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Jealousy (Severus Snape x Y/n)
Fanfiction"This man, so full of himself. Thinks he can really hide his caring heart from me...well then two can play at that game." My name is Y/n Celeste, it's 1993 and I am entering my last year at Hogwarts with an attitude that seems to have triggered my p...
