Jealousy (Severus Snape x Y/n)

Hungover

I awoke with a major headache and the brightness of the room just made it worse. Am I dead? Is this just the light of the afterlife? "This is just fantastic."

"I'll say," I squinted beside me where Oliver's accent echoed from, "Here, you need to hydrate."

"Oh my lord you died too Ollie?" I took the glass from him still squinting.

"You're not dead, you're in my bed." My body shot up, spilling water all over his sheets and making my head throb.

"OW! Fuck, my head!" I rubbed my temples and made eye contact with him, "Why is it so bright in here and...what words spilled from my mouth last night?" He walked away closing the curtains and I noticed there was no one else in the room.

"It's bright because it's noon and we're above the lake, unlike Slytherin's common room. Also you just told me about your heart break, not who it was and you wanted to kiss me." I froze, he wasn't smiling about me trying to kiss him, he just looks like he feels bad for me. "Y/n you're welcome to stay here till curfew. Being hungover and heartbroken and all." He started to slowly leave and I just don't know what to do.

"Ollie...can I go with you." I need comfort more than ever right now. I don't care where or what his plans are today, I just need my best friend.

"Of course."

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The halls are crowded for a Sunday afternoon. Either I woke up in an alternative universe where Hogwarts is religious or something like for example a duel is going on.

"Something must be going on..."

"You mean you don't know either Ollie?" I looked up at him, his eyes widened in concern when Cedric was running towards us.

"Peeves locked Filch in a cupboard. So the Weasley twins set up a few surprises for when the door opens." I looked at the crowd and my head began to throb once more as the laughing and cheering rose. "What's wrong with Y/n?"

"Hung over, heartbreak, all the fun stuff. She's refusing to rest." I groaned and turned around drifting away from the loud crowd.

"I'd rather hang with you two instead of shutting myself out. Now can we please just go chill outside."

They hesitantly followed and Cedric chuckled, "Does her royal highness want to be carried? You're not walking very straight." The room was spinning violently and I swiftly fell over to the nearest bin and my guts exploded out of my mouth. "You want to see Pomfrey?"

"Fuck no. Look I'm fine I just needed to get that out of my system." I stood up and began to walk normally once again however my legs were swept off the floor.

"Oliver, do we take her to Pomfrey or just do as she says?"

Oliver just smiled at me as I crossed my arms like a child, "Hm, I guess just do as the little girl says."

I ticked my jaw to the side, shaking my head slowly, "I am not a child! I'm older than both of you." There was silence then all three of us burst out into laughter, Cedric carefully placing me back onto my feet. My laughing ceased as a certain scent of the potion room, fresh ink and weirdly enough lilies swiftly past by me. I looked around and noticed a student walking around with a bottle of amortentia. Of course it wasn't him...he doesn't care...he fucked me and that was it.

"Something wrong love?" I slowly shook my head as I looked off, zoned out. I should just rest in my bed...

"I'm gonna go rest, I'd rather this hangover not carry on to tomorrow." My body began to direct its way to the stairs, not making eye contact with anyone.

"You walk fast, ooo why don't we just all chill in your common room?"

"Yeah lets just make all of Slytherin hate me more for bringing you two in." Cedric went quiet but both of their footsteps continued to follow me. "I can walk by myself."

"There's that attitude again. I figured we finally got it out of you but apparently not. Y/n seriously you need to not take your negative feelings out on us."

I stopped, is Cedric not gonna talk about Oliver's attitude? I felt my thoughts heat up and pour out, "Well I am so sorry, I'm sorry for getting harassed by Lockhart, I'm sorry for falling in love with Lupin and him cursing me, breaking my leg as a lesson to learn. Also I am so very sorry that I'm ruining your perfect lives with my attitude that I've gained to protect myself." I took a deep breath, I want to tell them about Snape, how I love him and how much it hurts me, "Also I'm sorry I don't love you back Ollie, I don't have control over my feelings."

I didn't look at them once and walked down those final steps turning the corner, no longer hearing their footsteps following me. My eyes felt warm and stung as they filled with tears, they slowly rolled down my cheeks however it did not faze me, I stayed straight faced. I went to open the common room door but froze when the potion classroom door opened and shut. I can feel him trying so hard not to walk over and talk to me. His presence is in my mind, I'm not thinking of much, my mind for once is empty after pouring all of my recent trauma out onto someone else.

"Ms. Celeste." His dark mysterious voice fluttered through my spine. The tears began to flow down faster but my facial expression still did not change, "Do not ignore me." His voice was stern, a warning...Oh but I will ignore you, you don't care about me one bit. You dropped us in an instance. I whispered the password and the doors opened, my foot hovered across the entrance but pulled away when the doors slammed shut. I closed my trembling fist and with my head loosely hanging down shuffled over to him.

"How may I help you Professor?"

"Look at me when you speak."

"No." It's silent, I want to run. This is the most petrifying moment of my life.

"5 points from Slytherin, for being an absolute bratty child." I looked away from my feet and to the wall, all he can see is my teared up eyes protruding through my hair. This seemed to change his attitude towards me, "Skipping dinner last night and then breakfast and lunch today, that isn't healthy. I don't suppose you plan on skipping dinner right now as well."

"I ate last night, don't worry...Also my stomach can't handle food at the moment." I felt him enter my mind once again, he knows now.

"Partying? Drinking? How pathetic." I finally looked at him straight on, my eyes wide, tears drying on my cheeks and the rest of my face straight.

"It's pathetic how scared you are to love. How you just push someone away when they start to exchange feelings." I looked away since his expression was just obviously not going to change.

"Lupin knows," My head shifted back towards him, "...that's why he talked to you, he was making sure he was correct. I was too nice to you when you were injured and it gave it away."

"So? That's when we just lower our profile to throw him off."

He raised a brow, "We were just a one time thing I thought? I put an end to it so you wouldn't have to." I want to bitch slap him for being oblivious.

"I just need to sleep and maybe I'll wake back up to the start of my sixth year before everything went downhill." I looked into his eyes and there was pain and agony in them. This just caused more tears to roll down my face once again, "Except that would be a nightmare because I wouldn't have figured out my soulmate yet." I turned and left, that's where I want to end things for today.