I don't want to lose you

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I wake up to the noise of the rain beating off my window. I get out of bed and get changed and pack my bag for the day. I can't be late again today even though yesterday morning was worth it. I grab my stuff and make my way to the car. Lando had already left. I pulled up at the track and parked beside landos blue mcclaren. I grab my bag and make my way into the paddock. Thankfully although the practice sessions were televised there wasn't many fans here in person so it made getting into the track allot easier. I walk into the mcclaren hospitality to see lando standing talking to Zak. I make my way over and say good morning to them both.

L-have you eaten breakfast yet?

Y/n-no I was going to get some here

L-cool same

We get our breakfast and find a table together.

Y/n-you looking forward for today?

L-yes I'm excited im usually pretty good in the rain, how are you feeling?

Y/n-honestly im pretty nervous it's my first time out in the rain and my track record in the wet is pretty up and down.

L-ye but I'm sure you will be okay you we're definitely more than okay yesterday

Y/n-yes that was true but in the wet the car is going have to be set up completely differently and I have to be fast again today I can't go from p1 to p20

L-listen don't stress it as you told me yesterday and I have told you many times...it's just a test weekend so chill

Y/n-yes I guess

We change the subject to something more light hearted when we see Zak coming towards us with what seemed like a pretty pissed off face.

Z-morning again guys

L-hi Zak, so You going to tell us what's wrong?

Z-well due to problems with the fia which they won't say to us but basically tomorrows testing has been called off so today is our last day of testing before the first round...sorry guys

Y/n-it's not your fault Zak but yes that definitely sucks

Z-not ideal

L-well at least all other teams are in the same boat

Z-very true and I suppose yesterday was very promising

Y/n-exactly

Z-okay guys well I guess you should go get ready for the first session.

We get up and make our way to our separate rooms to get changed. I put down my bag on the bed and open my phone and scroll through the weather app, it's giving rain all day...great. I put my phone down and lie back onto the massage table and get lost in my train of thoughts. The stress is building the nerves are getting worse. I can't handle it I sit up and immediately start gasping for breath. Tears are rolling down my face. The thoughts keep coming. I'm panting I slide from the table to the floor.Then I look up to see lando sprinting into my room. He runs over to me and kneels down in front of me and pulls me into his chest. He dosent say anything he just holds me tight and rubs his hand up and down my back. I wrap my hands under his and hug him tight.

L-it's okay y/n it's okay everything will be fine just take deep breaths I'm hear it's okay

I try to calm my breathing and slowly my heart rate slows and I can breath again. He releases me from his arms and lifts me onto the bed. I sit up and face him. He was standing Infront of me.

Y/n-thank you lando

L-not a problem...so you going to tell me what has you so worked up?

Y/n-I'm so nervous for today, I done so good yesterday I need to do the same today, the conditions are so bad, I'm so scared. I keep telling myself it will be okay and there isn't anything to worry about but I can't help it.