I don't want to lose you

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I wake up to the noise of the fans as we drive into the circuit. I look out through the windows. It was absolutely packed. I can hear the noise of the f2 cars on track. We park up and we take our bags from the car. I pull up my hood and put on my hat, I keep my head down to try hide my face. We scan into the track and walk towards the hospitality. We take the back way to try avoid as many people as possible. Reporters rush around trying to find us but we walk as fast as our legs would go. I didn't have the energy to run and it would make more of a scene if we all started sprinting. Charles gives me a huge hug before going into Ferrari.

C-I will see you soon, I love you and take care of yourself y/n

L-don't worry I will make sure she is okay

C-thanks and lando you need to take care of yourself too, it's been a hard few hours for us all

Y/n-same goes for you

He smiles then heads inside. I grip landos hand tighter and we make our way the short distance to McLaren. I take a deep breath before entering. I was hoping people wouldn't all come to us and ask questions, I really wasn't in the mood for it.

We get in and instantly Zak hugs me tightly.

Z-I hope your okay and don't worry we have everyone here at McLaren warned to leave you guys alone

Y/n-thanks Zak

Z-now come on you need to eat

We make our way upstairs to the canteen and take our usual seat in the corner.

L-stay here y/n I will get you some food

Y/n-you sure?

L-of course

J-and I will get some for you Charlotte

C-thanks Jon

Charlotte sits opposite me and gives me a sympathetic smile.

C-now tell me honestly, how are you?

Y/n-tired, soar, mentally and physically drained and extremely emotional

C-did you get any sleep?

Y/n-nope I couldn't sleep I was to worried

C-well there is a few hours before the race so you should try get some

Y/n-I won't be able to

C-well eating some food should help, your eyes look soar

They were red and puffy with grazes from wiping them, the dark circles under my eyes were un missable and I was as white as a ghost.

Y/n-ye they are a little bit soar but I will be fine

——lando pov——

Jon and I make our way to the canteen to get some food. I look back at y/n talking to Charlotte and my heart sunk even more.

L-I'm really worried about her Jon

J-it's understandable she will be upset

L-no Jon it's more than that, she hasn't slept, eaten or even drank. She is mentally and physically drained. She looks like a different person and I hate the fact that I can't fix it.

J-all you need to do is be there for her

L-but I don't know if that's enough, it makes my heart ache seeing her like this...I don't know what she will do if he isn't okay

J-is he bad?

L-ye it's pretty bad, but if she loses him I don't think she will ever heal, he means everything to her they do everything together and always have...they are twins for god sake