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N for Nature

It's one of those nights. You scream and cry and ask why are things this way to receive no answer in the end.

It's just how it is.

It doesn't matter how hard you cry or scream, nothing will change the truth. The only thing you can do is keep letting it out or wish for another outcome. The wish will be impossible since you can't change reality.

I'm scared to face the truth when the time comes.

I don't want to die or anyone close to me to die.

It seems childish to wish for something like a real fountain of youth or immortality. But those things are what are needed.

I wish to relive the same years, never going to the point where death affectsd my life remotely. I wouldn't mind living in a loop of my years if it meant no one close to me will die.

I don't want to face the harsh reality.

When it happens I hope everyone I hold close to me will be together. If we get reincarnated, I will have to go through this cycle once again. Perhaps I am already on another cycle.

It's not fair.