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Struggles. Excuses. Problems. Issues. Random shit. Something we all can relate. Essentially a vent book or a way to put everything in writing Plus thoughts and some theories. (beware cringe and teen stuff until you get to the recent ones) Some part...

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by Num4_TiX

by Num4_TiX

E for Exception

I really hate everyone,(in school) I curse at them in my mind as they pass me.

People expected better from me.
.... Why?

I expected better from me too.

I curse at myself for everything.
"I hate you." Someone said. It was a joke. A joke. It hits me in a different level.
I laughed in the reply and click send.

... I hate me too. I wanted to say it.

I want to be smart.
   I lower myself to be dumb
I want to be respected.
   I insult others
I want to be in the spotlight.
   I go back behind the curtains
I want to speak the unspoken words.
   I can't

My body betrays me, becoming sick, making me sleep more at night.

I can't fucking do stories because of that. It makes me angry.

Eating food makes me throw up but hey. It fills my stomache.. Until I empty it.

No point in telling people I'm sick. What can they do?
Oh right. You're here.

Just give me a get well and leave.

I'll be here, being my internet self.