I am?

M

M for Mess

I wish things were different. I wish someone else was born as me. Clearly I wasn't made to be here. I would prefer it if someone else were to control me instead.

It kind of sucks when you realize you have done nothing that you are proud of. The feeling gets even worse when there isn't anything you are movitated to do.

It's have to. Not want to.

If things can't be different then I wish things were easier.

It's unfair.

Why am I the one fated to fail as a person?
Why am I the one that have issues?
Why am I the one that have no talent whatsoever?

Was I born just for this to happen?

If someone else was born as me, life would have been better.

I feel bad for those without eyes, knowing that I waste my vision.
I feel bad for those without a voice, knowing that I don't speak.
I feel bad for those without hearing, knowing that I do nothing all day anyway.
I feel bad for those that are bedridden, knowing that I'm in good condition.
I feel bad for those that are poor, knowing that I grew up in a okay household.

To be honest, it all felt like a waste.

I can only dream of doing things.
It's impossible for me.

I'm going go live a dull and boring life but that's how it is. I'm going to die and be forgotten like everyone else.