I am?

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N for Nonbeliever

Warning: Religious Topic
(i know some people may get triggered or offended, i don't mean to bash on anything in particular, these are just my thoughts)

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I'm born in a Buddhist family (which i didn't know until I'm like 8-10 somewhere around there) I mean I see and particate in what my family are doing but I thought they're normal. (such as giving food to graves, burning fake money, bowing with these matches) After I learn these are religious stuff I try to avoid bowing with the matches since I feel really weird.

Due to that, I don't really believe in anything since no one have even talked about religious stuff. Well a few times was when I took one fake money when I was young since I wanted to keep if and they found out, saying that the Something will be angry and then going to this altar and saying to forgive me. Also ate some meat that was meant for the grave, they also found out and apologized in the altar, bowing down. And then I asked about the burning money stuff and my mom said it's it give my grandparents money in the afterlife so they cna use it.

Well the food on graves are for them too so they can eat happily. I didn't really know that until like I was 14, googling about Buddhism.

And still going on, I'm not a believer of anything. I tried becoming a Jevohah's Witness since my cousin actually talked to me about it, giving me a Bible and some religious books. I read all of them and finished 1 quarter of fhe Bible (way too long and hard to understand for a 14 year old) Anyways I told my family about it and then they pretty much laughed at me.

So being a little kiddo, I prayed for 1 night before dropping the whole religious thing. Went the same weird as bowing to the altar.

I guess I can call myself an athiest now- agnostic athiest (ish?) I believe in reincarnation. (When you die, you become someone else) I mean it sounds intriguing. Maybe that's why I believe it. Maybe I want to believe it.

I guess I was a religious athiest when I was younger (particates in religious activities but doesn't believe in god)

I mean if there is a God, why would he hide himself from the world if he wants everyone to accept him and follow him.

Wouldn't God at least mention Dinosaurs..? That would mean that humans just wrote it since there is no mention of Dinosaurs and pkus they did not have the tools to find dinosaur bones.

And why is the world still in pain- families breaking as they grow of age and die, leaving heart broken loved ones behind?

Is there really a heaven and hell..? If there is wouldn't we all just go to hell since we didn't help people that can be helped? (World Hunger and poverty)

I know there's different reasons why people's religious

1) They are born in a religious family
2) They believe there is something greater out there
3) They were or is in the deep ends of life
4) They just do since nothing else makes sense (like how humans came to be ect)

Yeah there could be a few more reasons but these in my personal perspective are the main reasons.

If there really is a God, can't he end the suffering on the earth?