A for Abysmal
Sometimes I wish that I wasn't here. That I disappeared.
What if I was never here?
Would my family be better off? If I wasn't there, someone else would have replaced me. Perhaps that person is that perfect child.
Would other people be happier? Surely whoever takes my place would make a lot of friends. They would help out whenever and make good memories.
Would the world be a better place overall?
I feel bad for everything that's remotely related to me.
What if I was bad luck for someone and they died after interacting with me? What if the car I let pass gets in an accident a few miles down the road? What if I held the door open for someone and they fell down the stairs?
It feels even more worse when I'm directly related even if the others don't see what's wrong.
If my parents just postponed their intimacy maybe I wouldn't have been born. Instead, it was someone else.
I really just want to sink back and disappear.
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RandomStruggles. Excuses. Problems. Issues. Random shit. Something we all can relate. Essentially a vent book or a way to put everything in writing Plus thoughts and some theories. (beware cringe and teen stuff until you get to the recent ones) Some part...
