I am?

F

F for Fear

Lately I have been having problems with my eyes. Vision growing worse. Heavy eyes. Now eyes strains. I can't write at times without my eyes hurting due to the white background.

And so I close my eyes to rest. And all I see is darkness. Pitch black. what happens if i wake up tomorrow morning and can't see anything? My mind asks as my heart sank.

I felt the disbelief at first. It hurt my chest badly that I had to turn the other way. I would touch my own face before getting up and feeling for the lights. I find it after a hassle. I hear the click after I turn the knob. Turns it more and more clicks came after.

Still darkness.

I feel myself breaking down. Calling out. I can feel how much despair and pain I would be im. It was painful. Knowing that you just saw normal every day things and now all you have is pitch darkness.

Questions raced through my head.
Why does this happen to me?
Why?
Will I be able to see again?
Why?
How can I live like this?
Why?

The worse of it all was me knowing it was all my fault. The grief. Regret. It will make me stay in bed and be unresponsive for a really long time perhaps even forever. I had always describe my future as black.

Alone, in the dark. With smoothing sounds and words. But all I will see is the nothingness. Darkness. A black-hole.

I would become Cold. Distant. Empty.

Dead eyes. All there is, is pitch darkness. Nothing to be happy about. No future.

Cold. Distant. Empty.