I am?

B

B for Bleak

There are times I wish I wasn't so out of it. I wished I was normal. I can act normal but feeling normal is impossible. I don't understand why I am like this. Why can't I be like everyone else?

I want to do normal things like any ordinary person would do. I want to know things that any ordinary person would know. I want to feel things an ordinary person would feel.

Everyone and everything seems so far out of reach for me. I feel as if I don't belong anywhere, not even in my own body or mind.

I wish I was like everyone else. I wish I was the typically person people would see from time to time. I wish I was someone that people would want to be friends with. I wish I was more not like me.

I wish someone else was me.