Guilty Pleasures [Completed]

Chapter 12

"Should I put mocha?"

"Milk, stupid." Sasha corrected me and handed me the cup of milk. I scoffed and continued making the Flat White coffee as Sasha was teaching me.

"I told you, I'm not good at coffees."

Making coffee is harder than baking cakes. Maybe I just got used on making cakes than coffees since I don't have someone to offer coffees. Even Eren doesn't like one.

Sasha took all the trouble teaching me. I thought maybe I could be a help for them since I'm always at Armin's cafe.

Speaking of who, I haven't saw him earlier even after I left his house. It was dawn when I went back to my own house.

After last night, I haven't fully thought of everything but leave it to the future me. Eren hasn't come home after leaving last night too.

"Y/N, are you listening?" Sasha's voice woke me up from thoughts. I glanced at her and smiled. "Like I said, Armin told me that you shouldn't work today. So after this last coffee, head straight home. Okay?"

I furrowed my brows. "Why? Am I not allowed here anymore?" I joked. 

"Ofcourse, you are!" She raised her voice. "He said and I quote "She's been working since midnight. Tell her not to come today."

Working?

I was taken aback and stopped pouring the milk from the coffee. The thought of Armin worrying made me smile unconciously. It's like some strange feeling started filling me up to get me flustered.

He should've just messaged me, though. If he was shy, there was no reason to be. We already saw each other for few hours.

I chuckled and pulled out my phone, messaging Armin.

To: Armin

I appreciate the worry. I'm doing alright. Four hours won't give me lacerations, should we try eight hours straight?

I bit my tongue, stopping myself to smile as I leaned on the counter and waiting for costumers-- or rather, waiting for his reply.

Not even a minute passed. I felt my phone vibrated from his reply.

From: Armin

Y/N! You can't say that while I'm at work. My manager almost saw your message.

I chuckled at his reply. I could literally picture his embarrassed face right now. That makes me wonder. Would he still do it with me again?

"Can I take an order?"

I looked away from my phone and saw Historia smiling. I took over the counter and greeted her.

"Ofcourse! What would you like?" I said and tucked my hair behind my ear. Her smile decreased and looked away.

"Actually, anything is fine. I just.." She paused and looked at me hesitantly. "..want to talk to you if you have time."

I tilted my head and watched her get hesitant. Connie appeared and tapped my shoulders, taking over the counter.

"Go on. She's Armin's friend, right?" Connie asked. I nodded and removed my apron and led Historia to a vacant seat. She waited for the order before she started and chuckling awkwardly.

"Eren's not always home, is he?" She laughed to ease the thin athmospere. "Is he really that busy at work?"

Busy with Violet.

I smiled and nodded. "I guess so." I leaned on the chair.

"You must've been so lonely, Y/N." She said. I mentally questioned myself what she really want to talk about. I'm guessing she did not came all the way here just to chat about my husband.

My brows went to thin line. "Are you interested in Eren?" I asked suspiciously. She suddenly choked from her own saliva and drank her coffee.

"N-No!" She coughed and catched her breath, looking surprised. "Ymir and I have been planning about our marriage. There's no way I can cheat on her." She defended.

I smiled and nodded. "I was kidding." I said. I know Historia doesn't have any interest in men.

"But.." She looked away and bit her lips. "Are you?" She uttered.

I blinked, lips parting in shock. I questioned myself if she was pertaining to me, cheating on Eren. I was dumbfounded to reply.

It makes me guilty but I don't feel any regret. Even if I had to label myself a cheater like Eren, I don't think I can feel regret.

"Uhm.. It was just by accident." She started. "Hange.. accidentally saw you and Armin last night. They have no idea how to confront you so they gave a word to me." She stated, flashing guilt on her expression. "I know I'm in no position about you and Eren. This is my first time getting close to a female. I'm a bit loner and I got attached to you." She giggled.

She bit her lips and grabbed my left hand that's sitting on the table. I was surprised by her sudden action, not a word wants to come out from my mouth.

Last night, wasn't an imagination when I thought I saw a figure infront of our house? I was careless.

"I can hide it all for you." She blurted all of the sudden. "I won't tell Eren a word just don't end our friendship here. I know you have a reason why you did that. You must've been so lonely that you're longing for someone's care, and Armin gave you that--"

She stopped and stiffened when I placed my hand on top of her hand out of shock. It was gentle but I shool my head.

"I.. I'm not using Armin for that reason." I said and looked at my hands on top of her shining engagement ring. "I'm not using Armin. I think.. I like his company but I could never use him for such reason just because Eren couldn't give me his attention."

I blinked and sighed, staring at the students came in and go in the restaurant. Some proffesionals who seems busy and only had coffee to start their morning.

"I did something unforgivable behind Eren. I'm still unsure, Historia." I said and smiled softly. "I don't know.. it's confusing."

Is it right to be honest in Historia? I'm trusting her the way she want to trust our friendship, despite of knowing in such a short time.

I shook my head over again. "I feel comforted at Armin than being with Eren. I thought.. I could take advantage of the situation, like what Armin said. I keep saying I don't want to use him but it feels like I am."

"It feels like whenever I picture Eren and Violet, the first thing I want to do is run to Armin and feel his comfort." I added.

She froze and withdraw her hand. "Eren and.. Violet?" She asked, familiarizing Violet's name. I bit my lips and looked down. I might've overdid my ranting. "Is Eren cheating?"

I didn't answered, unsure of how I should respond. She took my silence as 'yes' and gasped dramatically.

"How could Eren.." Historia covered her mouth with her hands.

"I also made a mistake with Armin. I don't want Armin to get involve.. Eren and him are like brothers. But I couldn't help it. It's a different feeling when it's him."

I shook my head. "I know it's wrong. I'm not tolerating it. And I'm taking any consequences that may come." I exhaled sharply and smiled lightly.

"Y/N.." Historia pouted and stood up, approaching me. She hugged my head and stroked my hair. "No matter what will happen, I'm on your side." She chuckled. "But cheating is wrong.. though, I won't interfere. I'll zip my mouth because it's none of my bussiness."

I laughed and tapped her arms. "I'm aware." I whispered.