Tell Me How (Isla De Verde Series #3)

Chapter 12

Hingal na hingal akong tumigil nang
maabutan si Agamemnon na ngayon ay nakaupo sa itaas ng pader sa likod ng building ng Senior High kung saan tanaw ang malawak na dagat. I bet if we wait till sunset, the view will be very fascinating.

I composed myself before walking towards his direction. Mga nasa kalahati lang ang taas ng pader kaya naman abot niya pero para sa mga kinulang sa height na kagaya ko ay kailangan ko ng magbubuhat sa'kin o isang patungan para makaakyat.

I was busy trying to find some thing para makaakyat din ako sa itaas ng pader nang makita ko ang isang kamay na nakalahad sa harapan ko. I was stunned while staring at it.

"C'mon, Feli..." He said, huskily.

Napalunok ako at dahan-dahang tinanggap ang nakalahad niyang kamay. He helped me to get on top by holding my waist and I couldn't get more any stuck. His warm yet calloused hands feels great against my skin.

"T-Thanks," I muttered after I get myself on top of the seawall.

"Welcome." Tipid niyang sinabi at ibinalik ang atensyon sa harapan kung saan ang makalmang galaw ng dagat ay nakakahalina.

Deafening silence enveloped the two of us. Hindi ko naman magawang magsalita dahil hindi ko alam ang maaaring sabihin sa kan'ya ngayon.

I know he's hurt. That he's broken. Just by thinking how much pain he bears broke my heart. The truth that he got broken because of his love for someone else. But I should accept it, right?

Gaya ng sabi ko, I'm going to forget about my feelings for him kaya naman baka ito na rin ang huling beses na makikita ko siya at malalapitan ng ganito. The thought of it makes my heart ache and it's so hard to swallow the lump in my throat.

I feel like crying but I forced myself not to. I really hate it when I'm feeling weak at mas lalong ayokong ipakita iyon sa ibang tao. I want them to know that I am strong even though deep inside that I'm not. That I'm also a broken glass trying to pick herself together piece by piece.

"I love her, you know?" He suddenly said. Nanatili lamang akong tahimik at pinili na lamang na makinig sa kan'ya.

Sometimes, people doesn't need our advice. All they need is a hand to hold on to and an ears to listen to their pain and miseries. And that's what I'm doing right now.

Pain inflicted my chest when I saw his broad shoulders shaking. Hindi ako tanga para hindi malaman na umiiyak siya ngayon dahilan para mas lalo akong masaktan.

Kung ako nalang sana ang minahal mo ng gan'yan, hindi ka sana nasasaktan ng ganito. Bakit hindi nalang ako, Agamemnon? Bakit hindi nalang ako?

I found myself tapping his shaking shoulders. Hindi ko yata siya kayang yakapin dahil hindi ko alam kung paano at saan magsisimula.

"Everything will be alright in time..." I murmured while staring into the depths of the blue sea in front of us.

"I-I can't even confess to her because I'm afraid that what we have might get ruined in just one wrong move..." He muttered, wiping his tears away.

Nakasuot pa ako ng toga at siya naman ay puting long-sleeved na nakatupi hanggang braso niya. His hair is neatly trimmed ngunit may excess hairs na bumagsak sa kan'yang noo. He also graduated today and I haven't congratulated him yet.

"And now I just learned that she's engaged with someone? It fucking hurts!" He hissed.

"You know what, Agamemnon? Sometimes, what we couldn't get are not meant for us. We should accept the fact that some people come and go and that's okay."