Falling Hearts.

Chapter Twenty One.

The park hasn't changed. The swings were still rusty and creaked every time I swung. It was so lonely here without AJ.
When I got out of the car I went back to her house and took all my stuff. I'm not staying with her. I don't want to be near her anymore. I broke her once again and that was something. I didn't want to do ever again. But I did it. I hope she doesn't want me to leave. If she does want me to go I will but I want to stay. I want to make things right with her. I need her in my life even though she may not need me.

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Noah hurt me once again. Of course I forgave him. What I said is true. When he left it hurt so much more than when he was here. When he came back I acted so casual about it. I did expect it but not this soon. I broke me to tell him I had a boyfriend. I don't love Noah like that anymore. Carter treats me good. He doesn't lie to me. He won't leave me.
Right now Carter and I are sitting on a restaurant just talking. We've already ate and everything.
"I'm sorry about earlier." I say reaching over to grab his hand. He rubs his finger over my knuckles and smile.
"Don't worry about it darling. I love you." He says looking up at me. I can feel myself start to blush.
"I love you too." I smile at him and he smiles back.
"I'm so glad I met you." Carter says while standing up. He helps me up and we walk out hand in hand.
"Where do you want to go now?" He asks looking down at me. I lean my head on his shoulder.
"The park near my house?" I ask with hope that he would say yes.
He nods his head and we walk over to the car. I get in then carter does. He still holds my hand. I guess I did love Noah but I didn't love him as much as I love Carter.
I was lost in my thoughts that I didn't realise we were here.
We got out and walked over to the benches. Before we sat down I froze. I notice Noah sitting on the swing with his suite case next to him. He seemed so sad. He caught my eye. I had to ignore him. I was still mad but I felt so sorry for him. I say down and looked at Carter.
He noticed I was uneasy.
"What's wrong darling?" He asks me while putting an arm over my shoulder.
"He is here. Noah." I say looking down at him. I could feel the tension rise in Carter. I know he wanted to hurt him. He hurts everyone who has hurt me. Sometimes his over protective.
Carter tried to get up but I put my hand on his chest to stop him.
"Don't. I'll go talk to him." I say then get up and walk over to Noah.
I stand in front of him. I can tell his been crying.
"Noah." I say then sit on the swing next to him. I look over at Carter and I see him starring.
"Ay." He says back. Whenever he says my name my heart sinks. I want him to call me AJ. Just AJ not Ay anymore.
"Why are you here? Why aren't you at my house anymore?" I place my hand on his knee to comfort him.
"I thought you wouldn't want me there anymore. I'm so sorry AJ, I mean Ay. I stuff up with you so many times and I'm so sorry. You know I love you but I know you don't love me and I'm sorry for being the worst friend. If I could I would go back and replay everything." He starts to cry. I stand up and make him stand up again. I give him a hug. A long hug. I miss this. I miss his hugs. I feel so protected with Noah's hugs but it's different with Carter.
"It's all okay Noah." I says breaking the hug. He stops crying and smiles.
"No it's not." He is still holding my arms.
"Get off her." I hear Carter say. I roll my eyes. I expected he would do something like this. I turn around to face him. He pulls him in his arms.
I seriously love Carter but it's like I can't even talk to any other boy without getting in trouble with him.
"We were just talking." I say turning around to face Carter. He had fury in his eyes.
"Yeah, we were. I'm sorry." Noah says backing up a bit.
"Leave. Leave here and never come back. You don't deserve Ay." Carter spoke with such hatred in his voice. I look at Noah. My eyes begging him to stay but he gave into what Carter said. He too his suite case and left. I turned to face Carter and put my arms around him. I cried into his chest. I was mad at him but I needed some comfort. I can't do this on my own anymore. I use to be so strong but since Noah left I have become so much more weak. Now since he has left again I feel even worse. But this time he didn't leave because he loved me too much. He left because the one I love has got hatred towards him.