Falling Hearts.

Chapter Fifteen.

I didn't want to leave AJ but I know I have to. The sight of her crying just tore my heart into a million pieces. I can't take another day without but I'm going to have to get use to not being around her. I'm going to live with Evie. She is the only person I know who doesn't live here. It's hard right now to walk away from her but I have to. I don't want her to see me cry.
"I love you." AJ yells out. I turn my head to the side. Those words she said. I knew she meant them but she only said them for me to stay. I can't stay. My jaw clenched. Everything in me took for me to not turn around. I keep walking. I can't look back again because then I will definitely stay. I run home as fast as I can. As soon as I slam the door the rain pours. I slide down the door and bury my head in my knees. I cry even harder. Guys can cry to. Just because society thinks boys aren't meant to be weak doesn't mean we can't cry once in a while. I know AJ would still be standing at the park in the rain dwelling on what I had told her. I knew I hurt her. That's what I don't want. I wipe my eyes than stand up. These past three weeks all I have been doing was selling my stuff and packing everything I needed. It was a definite now. No turning back. I cannot imaging what AJ must be feeling. Maybe she is secretly glad I'm going. I'm always causing trouble I guess. I'm just not with being I'm her life. She can find someone who won't ever hurt her. I'm not saying that I would physically hurt her but I might emotionally and mentally.
To me emotional and mental pain is so much worse than any physical pain
It's only morning but I want to leave now. I can't be In the same town as her knowing that she is in pain. Yet alone I can't be on this earth because I know I hurt her so damn much. Of course I can't go but I want to.
I walk over to the lounge room. It was empty. I lay down on the floor. Every memory with AJ came rushing back. The tears came. I felt so tired.

***
I wake up to a loud banging at the door. Must be the taxi. I stand up and take my two suite cases. I look at the room for the last time. All the memories I'll be giving up. All the times I spent with AJ. It's all gone now.
I walk out and look at the driver. He seems mad.
"Sorry about the wait. I fell asleep." I say as we walked over to the taxi. He just grunted.
I passed him the money before we started to drive. I always do this because I know I would forget.
I look out of the window. One place I didn't want to drive past was the park. That is the one place that AJ and I shared so many memories together. And of course by my luck we drove past it. AJ was still there sitting in the veranda. She was there on the cold the whole time. Unless I'm just seeing things but she is definitely there. She saw me. My heart dropped. Even though she was far away I could see her face was stained with tears. I felt so terrible for leaving.
I'm so glad the airport isn't far from my house. I want to go and be with Evie so I can get my mind off of AJ.
The car come to a stop. I look up at nod my head at him. I took my suite cases and walked through the airport doors.
People were rushing everywhere. I've only been here twice. Once to pick up Evie and the other time was to say goodbye to AJ when she went away for a holiday.
Now I'm the one saying goodbye but she isn't here.
Walking through security is always a scary thing even though you haven't done anything wrong. I drop my suite cases where I need to then walk to my the gate where my plane is. We aren't aloud to board until an hour.
I sit down on the seat and then take my phone out. One message from AJ.
'I guess all I have left to say is a goodbye but I don't want to go there. Don't forget me.'
I take a deep breath before replying.
'How could I forget someone who gave me so much to remember?'

A/N: I'm sorry I haven't updated in a while. This chapter is short and not the best. I'll try to make the next one longer and way better. :)