The Lost Wings of Andra (COMPLETED)

CHAPTER 21

I don't want him to be part again of my life. I had enough, tama na ang ilang taon na nasaktan ako at naghirap dahil sa kanya. Ayokong e-asa ulit ang puso ko sa taong basag dahil pareho lang kaming masisira pagdating ng panahon at baka umabot pa kami sa punto na pagsisihan pa namin na nagkakilala kami.

I almost regreted that I met him pero kung hindi din dahil sa kanya wala akong anghel sa piling ko ngayon.

"I don't want you to be part of my life again Greg. I already said that to you countless times. I'm ready to forgive you and forget about the past we had if just leave me and my son alone. I want you gone Greg " I coldly said to him.

Ilang minuto muna siya hindi nakapagsalita bago tumawa ng mapait. I saw a glint of light in his eyes bago siya tumingin sa taas para pakalmahin ang sarili.

"Wow, I never thought that this could be hurt so bad." kinagat niya ang labi at nanghihinang tumingin sa akin. "You really want me gone so bad to the point na kaya mo akong patawarin ng ganun-ganun lang" hindi makapaniwala niyang sabi.

"Yes," I said almost stuttering completely driven by the emotion in his eyes.

His gray eyes scream hurt, guilt and longing. Madadala na sana ako kaso pinigilan ko ang sarili ko. I hurt him. Yes I've hurt him. I can clearly see it in his eyes. Dapat masaya ko kasi nakabawi man lang ako sa kanya sa lahat ng hirap at sakit na nararamdamn ko. But another emotion rose inside me telling me to stop hurting him.

My mind is a mess right now pero pinatili kong walang expresyon nag mukha ko dahil ayaw kong makita niya na naapektuhan ako sa kanya hanggang ngayon.

"What about Seven? He's my son right?" he asked

"He's not your son," I told him straight in his face without blinking.

"He's mine Andra 'wag kang sinungaling. You know I hate lying." he said to me pleading almost into his knees.

"He's not yours Greg. I got raped after that night. You're fucking friend fucking raped me countless times. I was raped after you sold me" a tear fell into my cheeks as I said that. Pilit pinaintindi sa kanya ang sinasabi ko.

It's true that I was raped bago dumating si Callista para iligtas ako on that same evening and that was also the time that I learned that I was pregnant. Kaya hanggang ngayon malaki ang pasasalamat ko kay Callista na hindi ko na mahagilap ngayon.

I want him gone. Please be gone because I can't hold it any longer.

"Fuck!" he throws a punch to the wall near him.

Napaigtad ako dahil sa ginawa niya. Malakas ang impact ng suntok nya sa pader kaya alam kong masakit ang kamao niya ngayon. But he's just there not moving an inch. I attempted to advance a step but he storm out the kitchen. Right after that the door in my condo closed with a loud thud.

Napakagat ako ng labi dahil sa hindi ko maipaliwanag na nararamdaman. I should be happy right now kasi wala na siya gaya ng gusto ko pero bakit ako nasasaktan? I want him gone, and that's it.

Nanghihina akong napasandal sa may counter bago ako nagsimulang umiyak. 

Iyak na nasasaktan at nanghihinayang. Iyon ang tagpong naabutan ni Gorgy. Dali-dali niya akong inalalayan at pinapatahan.

I said everything to him. I confessed everything from my past up to the present. Parang mawawalan ako ng hininga dahil sa sobrang iyak ko. 

I know Seven was worried too because he was looking at me the whole time, bagay na hindi niya ginagawa. He didn't ask me about what happened. He was just right there while processing the whole situation.