Monday, 30th March 2025 - 9:01pm
Why can't I just stay happy? Why do the memories have to drive me to make more mistakes? Why can't they just leave me alone?!
Why did I have to be so stupid?!
I should've just ignored the voice in my head and the pain in my heart. Should've tried harder to focus on things that make me happy..
I shouldn't have pulled out that box, I shouldn't have let the tears fall, I shouldn't have tried to seek comfort in the memories, in his things. I shouldn't have let this get me down...
But it did.
Because, despite what anyone says, including myself, I did love him and I'm nothing to him.
Never was. Never will be.
And that knowledge absolutely destroys me. Rips my partially mended heart into shreds and tears my soul apart. Let's old wounds bleed out again...
And I'm gonna embrace the pain while I can. Because, one day soon, I'll be wishing I could feel pain, because I won't feel anything.
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