The Diary of a "Happy" Girl

Entry No. 78

Wednesday, 27th May 2015 - 1:12am

There's a saying that goes "good things come to those who wait."

I honestly think that it's bullshit.

I mean, I've been waiting my whole life for good things to finally settle in, but they never do.

And, when I try to change that, the worst things happen.

There's another saying that goes "when you hit rock bottom, the only way to go is up. If you're still going down, then you haven't reached your bottom."

I also think that is bullshit.

Seriously, how much further will this hole let me sink before it allows me to go up again?

Does it mean that worse things are coming my way?

Or is it implying that I won't make it to the bottom of my hole? That I'll never know what it's like. That I'll just continue to fall until I give up.

I feel sick. I wish someone was here to hold me. I'm cold and tired and alone.

And I wish I was nothing.