A New Beginning - currently being edited!

Chapter Thirteen:

I'd been lying awake for over an hour at least, but I couldn't bring myself to get out of bed. I didn't want to face the day, I just kept reliving the previous night, the words Beau said to me. I'd never felt more broken as a person. Beau was the glue that had been keeping me together since the first day I'd arrived in Australia, he knew more about me than I knew about myself. Yet the whole time, he'd just wanted to sleep with me, I was nothing more to him than a fucked up mess, a desperate and easy target. 

"What do I do, Mum, I can't do this on my own" I whispered to myself, pulling my pillow close to my body and crying into it. "I'm not old enough to face this on my own, I'm eighteen. I'm meant to be at university, enjoying my life and partying every weekend, not worrying about paying the bills or trying to run a house without you here". 

I looked at the picture I had of my mother and I placed on my bedside table, "Please help me" I cried, looking at the face which I missed terribly, the face which warmed my heart and made me feel comforted, yet also made me feel so alone and empty, like a black hole. 

Maybe it was all a mistake moving here, I should've stayed in London, where I belong. With the true friends that I had there, I shoud've just moved house there, gone to university and got a flat. Lived my life at home. Why did I have to immigrate and come across Beau, why did I ever have to fall for a famous YouTuber. This isn't the life I should be living. My best friends are on the road to fame, and who am I? I'm practically an orphan, trying to earn a living from a part time job in a clothes shop. We're from different worlds.

Slipping out of my bed, I headed downstairs and flicked the kettle switch down. My eyes stung and my face was sticky from tears. I grabbed a coffee cup and spooned in the granules.

I swallowed the warm liquid and cuddled onto the sofa. I eyed my phone on the coffee table, I' left it there the previous night along with the empty bottle of wine which I'd polished off after I'd returned from the club. 

32 text messages and 12 missed calls. All from Daniel. 

I dialled his number and pressed call, within two seconds he answered.

"Fucking hell Amelia, I've been calling and texting you all night, are you okay?" he shouted down the phone without even taking a breath, I suddenly felt so guilty for leaving without informing him. 

"Yeah, I'm fine, I just had to get away" I sighed, composing myself so I didn't break down in tears whilst on the phone to him. 

"Away from what?" he questioned. "Do you want me to come over? You're worrying me" he fretted. I could already hear him collecting his jacket and throwing shoes around. 

"No, I'm okay, I don't want to see anyone. I just need some time" My voice cracked and I began to cry, I couldn't help it. 

"Amelia why are you crying? What happened last night, you left and Beau was in a right state after that, did he do something to upset you?" he fired questions at me, his voice getting faster and faster. I sighed down the receiving end of the phone. 

"I don't want to talk about it, thank you for caring Daniel, but I'm going to go" I whimpered. I hung up my phone and turned it off completely. I didn't want anyone else texting or calling today, I didn't want to hear from anyone. 

Flicking on the TV, I searched the channels for something to watch, there was nothing that interested me, so I just selected anything to create some background noise. Even if there was something on that I wanted to watch, I wouldn't really watch it, I'd just wallow in self-pity. 

I dragged out my laptop from under the sofa and lifted the lid, I clicked the power button and waited for it to load, it had been far too long since I'd checked my emails and contacted friends from home. Once my laptop was fully loaded and ready for use, I opened up my email account, noticing one from my best friend Amie. I opened it up:

Girl, where the fuck are you. We haven't talked in so long. I miss you man, I feel like I've lost a limb. It's not the same around here without you, it's still boring as shit and the boys aren't hot, they're still knobheads. 

Anyway, I have something I need to discuss with you. So please skype me as soon as you can, it's really important so don't forget. 

Love you X 

A mixture of emotions pulsed through me as I read her message, I didn't know how to feel, was she okay? Why did she need to talk to me so urgently and why was it so important. A million thoughts rushed through my head.

I opened up skype, it was 9am here, so it would be around midnight back home, there was a chance she could be online. I scrolled through my contacts and reached her name, she was active. I pressed call and waited for her to accept.

"Amelia" she screeched, as her face appeared on my screen. She began waving madly and bouncing on her bed, she was still off her rocker. 

"Hey, what's up, what was with the e-mail?" I questioned, raising an eyebrow, she calmed down and sat in front of her computer, fiddling with her bleached fringe. 

"Well, here's the thing. I'm in between jobs at the minute so I've got loads of free time, and my parents are ditching me for Christmas this year and going to New York, so I was thinking, how about I come to Aus for Christmas and New year, it would be for about four weeks?" She chewed her lip as she awaited my response, a smile spread across my face.

"Yes, yes, oh my god please yes" I begged, beginning to get like Amie did at the start of the conversation; excitable and childlike. "You can stay for as long as you like, I have the room, so just tell me when you're flights and everything are and I'll be at the airport to pick you up".

"Okay, well tomorrow I'll book my flights and I'll let you know when I'm coming. God, I can't believe we'll see each other in a few months. It'll be something we can both look forward too" she smiled.

We stayed on skype for the next hour, I didn't mention anything about Beau, or even being friends with 'the Janoskians'. We just reminisced on memories from when we were kids, it was like we hadn't even been apart. 

"Right then Am's, I'm going to have to go to sleep, it's like 1am here. I'll e-mail you all my flights and everything tomorrow okay babe, see you later, love you" Amie said, she waved and blew a kiss before disconnecting the call. 

I felt happier than I did before, I had something to look forward too and to keep me happy for the time being. I could take my mind off Beau and focus on preparing for Amie's visit. I just wished I didn't have to wait to see her.